can't be fussed about anything

it's sooo my mum to say/hear something like that

my mum's deaf...trust me when i say that. seriously she's so hard of hearing it's unbelievable: -

MUM: what are you doing?
RENZI: (opening my dad's drawer) er...looking for my pants. aunty may have accidentally put it in his drawer
M: HARRR?? Panties??
R: ....

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My friend Jeff called me a few years back. At that point in time, we didn't have the handphones and even pagers, so we had to rely on the good ol' land line. So he called, and asked for me.

JEFF: May i speak to Renee please?
MUM: She's not in. Who's this on the line?
J: This is Jeff.
M: HARRR??? Jess??
J: No..it's JEff.
M: HARRR??? Jeesss??
J: (I'm assuming that he got a little impatient here) NO, it's JEFF.
M: HARRR??? JEsss?? Can you spell your name?
J: J-E-F-F.
M: OHHhhh, okayy...I will let her know.

When i came home that night, my conversation with her went something like this...

MUM: Your friend called.
RENZI: Oh?
M: Yeah...the name's JESS.
R: Jess??! Are you sure?
M: YEAH!
R: But i don't know any jesses.

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sighhh....Many others like Jingxi can testify for my mum's deaf nature. To think she kept complaining about my granny's hearing!

The irony of it all. tsk.

renzi kissed and swore @ 10:28:00 PM
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it's sooo my mum to say/hear something like that

renzi kissed and swore @ 10:28:00 PM
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songs...make the world go round!

for some reason, these few days any other song would trigger a memory or remind me of someone. i would start thinking, reminising and smiling to myself. =) hehehe...like yesterday, hahaha i chanced upon this song "electric dreams" and it was so apt because...it was a retro song and geok pei&i wanted to go zouk initially. this song, among other songs, reminds me of geok pei and our post A-level times when clubbing was our favourite past time.

hmm, what other songs remind me of that silly gal....ahh... the "two steps behind" song. that song which kinda reminds me of lai because he keeps calling it the stalker song. but i remember karen singing that song to me. i think i was feeling down in class, and she sang the chorus of that song to me. it's very old school but i still LURVE the tune.

i would definitely think of karen if i hear ANY craig david song. at one point of time, she kept asking me to burn some CD songs for her. stupid gal...encouraging me to be a pirate. tsk...

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Every time you want to grumble,
Think of others who have less;
Ask the Lord to keep you humble,
Grateful for each happiness. —Marye

renzi kissed and swore @ 11:23:00 PM
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toilets...and conversations

conversations with...

(while walking back to the officer, this certain person stops the proper conversation with a random comment)
r: yada yada...
k: ayy.... you know......
r: ...?
k: you know that we're very special.
r: ..... is that comment meant to be some sort of a consolation to us right now??

(this particular day, i was waitin for a cab. i so happened to wear somethign flowery. i flagged for a cab and this cabsi stopped)
chee kor peh taxi driver: (in chinese) going geylang ah?
renee: erm.........no, telok kurau.
(along telok kurau road, he asks another question)
t: lorong what?
r: lor k, uncle
t: harrr? tay?
r: no...k...
t: HARR?? J?!?

SNIFFLESSSSSS...i don't look like...someone who sells my body in geylang. i was just wearing something pretty. pretty does not equate to sluttyyyyy ..snifflesss..nooooooooo ...stupid chee kor peh (CKP)!!! *growl* i had to meet 2 CKPs in 2 days. sigh..one, was the taxi driver; the other, the old malay man living along lor k. bleah. he goes around preying for young innocent cute little girls like me. even though i'm in proper office-wear, he'd never fail to leer at you from head to toe and ask the usual "going swimming ah?" ULLGHHH!!! i tend to pretend not to know him now.

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toilets...

i always go to the same toilet to do whatever business. it's some sort of a habit. maybe it boils down to familiarity. it doesn't only happen in where i'm working right now. i did that in monash too (ahhh memories). even though i kept reading the same old lesbian-related, political, sex-related and/or uni-related posts in melbourne, i was still amused and drawn to them. i'm even impressed at some of the msgs written. i wonder what they have in the male toilets....

speaking of toilets, doesn't it make your blood boil whenever you go into the toilet and find the toilet seat wet with urine splattered all over. I mean i'm assuming it's urine! It can't possibly be orange juice or someone's leftover coke (coke?? how did i even think of that? if the person's urine's coke's colour, she/he would have to be sent to the doc's immediately!!). No one would be THAT bored to trickle down some of their drink onto seat. WHAT MOTIVE WOULD THEY HAVE???? bahhh my point is, it's irritating it have to wipe off the consequence(s) of the previous user's negligence to aim properly (for guys) or sit properly (for girls). i'm not even talking about guys because their dickss are not worth mentioning. what i can't stand are girls who, as kinky as it may sound, open/spread their legs wide lift their butts and try to aim into the toilet bowl. firstly you don't have a dick and you can't aim. secondly, isn't it pretty darn uncomfortable to do so? worse, i can't stand girls/guys who stand on the toilet seats to pee.

so what/who we have here are...
1) men who have a device to aim but can't aim properly
2) women who do not have the proper device but are stubborn enough to try to aim.

sigh...

and what's with the inconsistency of the toilet paper in my office?? it can be soft and easy on the butt hole for an hour, and the next, it's as rough as...I DON"T NOEEE...it just feels wrong. bahh...stupid toilet paper.

(OKaYYYYyyyy this has nothing to do with the toilet. or well to a certain extent, depending how you look at it) i was queueing to try clothes today and suddenly i heard a loud FARRTTT that was let off in one of the changing rooms. i was praying hard that i didn't have to go into the cubicle (where the potent gas was released) but luck would have it, the lady from THAT particular cubicle opened the door. clearly she looked embarrassed, and CLEARLY i looked uncomfortable. i shot a look at the people behind me - some gave me looks of encouragement, others gave me a look of empathy/sympathy. =((( i braced myself and even told myself that loud farts equate to very little damage to the environment. when i went in, i was completely overwhelmed by the smell. i did think it woudl be rude to rush out of the cubicle, gasping in packets of air so...i stayed in the cubicle.

=( moral of the story - i have no moral for the story. i'm a losaaaaa..... who had to breathe in the remains of what seemed like... I DUNNOOOOO i don't wanna knowwwwwwwwww

sniffles...

renzi kissed and swore @ 1:09:00 AM
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i miss meng

I went out with MENG last saturday before i met Charms for that hilarious movie. We had our lunch before settling down at this cafe in orchard. really wish i could meet him everydya because he's good fun =) oh well...

renzi kissed and swore @ 1:13:00 PM
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why are there so many songs about rainbows?

i was driving to harbour front when i saw this exquisite display. it was faint but yet beautiful. it was a full rainbow. i HAD to take a photo of it. i took a couple of shots and which resulted in my car erm...swerving hahahaha... =) BUUUTTT in my defence i DID check behind me for cars. ANYYWAYYY there aren't many songs about rainbows so wat's the big deal about this rainbow song? hahahaha

mucking around... hahha unfortunately...1) i couldn't stay over in sentosa because i didn't feel physically up for it 2) yvonne had to leave earlier. but yeah it was a good time of serious and...sometimes light-hearted talk. i love talking to these acjc cf peeps. =) weiliang esp has very good insight.

customary photos with the people i go out with. =) for some reason i look....bloated =((( (ANYYWAYYYY from left: weiliang, jon and meee)

i was waiting for izzy and his family to arrive. i felt like some loser waiting because...hahaha i was supposed to be helping out at reception but...i arrived EXTREMELY early. stupid izzy actually thought i would be late so he told me 6.30 (instead of the original time 7pm). guess wat time i came down? 6pm...I AM DAMM I AM LOSAAA... on a separate note, i settled down with my drink and reminised about MMN etc because for some reason the surroundings just reminded me of...preparing for MMN, making the empty room look perfect. ahhh...

the two gals doing reception. think her name's samantha =)

crowds only streamed in....what, 7.30pm...*growl* typical...tsk

what is a wedding without...FOOOODD!!! hmmm yummmzz and yeappp..it's buffet style! the spread ranged from salmonnnn, duck, beef, fondue...

ulgghhh izzy made us drink this YUCKY hard liquor....it tastes like VODKA ...AND I HATE IT!

me, the bridegroom and the wretched looking bottle of liquor that looked like bleach and tasted like shit...

starbucks peeps, both current and former ones... =)

well...many happy returns to izzy and his family... =) hehehehe

renzi kissed and swore @ 11:29:00 PM
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clarity =)

I just met up with Dom, yeap. ….the second ex. I have not exactly talked to him since the last and only confrontation we had after our break-up, which was say 5 years ago? It was a great time catching up with him and updating each other about what has been happening to us for the past half a decade. I am really glad that I had a talk with him because I found clarity and am more sure of how I am feeling towards certain issues that have been nagging at me for the past months.

At the end of the dinner session with him at DIN TAI FENG (apparantly xiao long baos from crystal jade are better), I made a few decisions to myself. I hope these decisions can be carried out. Wait, I know that they can be carried out. I’m confident. I have been too wishy washy and indecisive, it is time to put a stop to it.

I love his car! hehhe its a jeep, who doesn't love jeeps??
I love his advice more! He's grown so much i'm so proud of him!
I love him the most! As a friend of course. I mean I really thank God for putting Dom into my life. Even though he broke my heart once (HUR HUR HUR...those were the days), I guess we have come a long way and have become better friends now so that’s something to be thankful and grateful about.

It took THAT long, but I am happy. I am glad he is happy with what he is doing now as well. I believe things heal, people heal, it is just a matter of time. This is one great example to exemplify what I have just brought up. Never say never, because it will never happen. Trust me on it. Heh...

Time heals, to a certain extent. But with God, everything can be healed. =)

Well even though i had a bad start to the day, today was really a better day after all! =)

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:03:00 AM
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renzi_is_moody@dramatic.com

met up with kor today. haven't seen him for ages due to his exams. hopefully i get to meet him soon again. maybe him and rongyang. it's always nice and heartwarming to have friends around you, friends who are not there all the time but you know that you can run to and lean on them when you're in need.

i would like to take this time to say..thanks guys! (guys is a general term ah!) okay...maybe i shall dedicate this post to my girlfriendsss...

peeps like karen...u silly biatch...always complaining. thanks for taking my shit and accepting who i am...i reallly love u... =) u dun noe how much only.. heheh

jean...wo ai ni! this gal, even though she doesn't agree with almost everything i do (yesh all the silly things i do..), she still loves me. i know this for a fact.*muakz*

anne... another one of my spice gals, my ARNIE BABY. thanks for the constant care and prayer. i really appreciate it. thanks for not giivng up on me.

charms...one my my closest monash friends. always lending a ear... =) always my SUI-BIAN friend whom i was supposed to sign up with for the amazing race. bahh,...nevermind! we'll do it soon! the next amazing race!

cheng... always understanding and her antics can set me up smiling for the whole day. i miss your hokkien mee gal!!!

susu... thanks for the advice and the constant concern...!!! i'm really happy that life's been really good to u!

christie... one of my coffee buddies...hope u come back soon!!!

diana...stupid gal...i met u too late! hahhaha i actually thought that gal was aloof....well guess appearances really play tricks with ya...

alvina... silly gal..hard to meet up with her but always appreciate her frank opinions. i miss hanging out with her in australia.

oakz.... =) it was a pity that i only got to know her better in her last sem...but i love her philosophies.. i learn so much from her.

daryl...i miss her....i relaly do...

danielle... one of my blading buddies. my bitchign partner.. =) i miss blading with her...

jingxi...still in melb... =) but missing her as well!

xiu... another one of those gals whom i haven't seen in ages. but i always look forward to meeting her and sharing with her...

nic... always a pleasure meeting up with her.. i love talking to her... and sharing.

xh.... i miss gossiping and tallkin cock with her....

persis... silly cousin of mine... i noe i can call her anytime for a chat.

yvonne...hahah my silly gal from penang. always her nervious laughter makes me smile for some reason...

sze min...my gym partner...love her to bits....

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hahah who needs guys when u've got amazing gals like these? hahah oops... nah lah i love my boys as well.. but this IS supposed to be dedicated to my girlies..my babes...the ones who give me perspective and taught me how to feel more.

sigh... i dunno why i'm so moody today. i was quite happy for some reason but...one action set me tumbling into depression. tomorro will be a better day! i know it will! =) it has to!

i have to constantly remind myself of that.

ah an incident...i was walking home, walking in the pace of the music in my ears. for some reason, even though i felt like crap, i felt comforted. it could be the wind, or just the quiet surroundings...i was just happy. i stopped to my tracks in the middle of the road and smiled,enjoyed the wind and hummed to the tune of some crappy mariah carey song =)

ahh...

tomorrow will be a better day!

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:52:00 AM
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what does that equate?

waking up early =
goin to CHIJ katong (my old primary school) to vote. i can't even remember who i voted for. darn it...all i remember was breakfast after voting with my folks

meeting aik ming =
meeting up with an old good friend. i miss that dude. guess i haven't been spending that much time with him, since he's attached and all (ahahha excuses i give myself)

movie with charms =
laughing the WHOLE time..haven't been able to laugh that hard. think charms can vouch for it. tink the ppl around me thought i was crazy

putting my bag in the locker =
not bringing my camera...i'm a camera whore after all. i felt kinda....handicapped. charms could see it. she was in the club with me after all

sharing a few jugs with charms and rachel, and a beer with ren ren =
getting a bit high..haven't been high for a while. was able to dance though. with a bunch of nerds! hahahhahaha oops....i shouldn't say it because of a few of my friends from tat school

what i mean is..... ntu =
nerds.... as compared to nus....hehehe...most of the time tat is...

disclaimer =
ahemmmm..of course other than ppl like karen..ahem

drinking quite a bit =
tendency to puke...and yeap...i did so... i could even see the noodles that i shared with charms...oops too much details there

high =
messaging nonsense on my phone...hahah and pushing ren ren to a girl who looks quite hidious (oops..dun mind the spelling error...hey i'm still high!)

so what does all this mean =
I'm tired....i haven't clubbed for sooo long. i'm getting old. i need to get to church......erm.wait...wake up early to go to church...so guess i should go to sleep now...

"good night everyone!!!"=
simple enough?

renzi kissed and swore @ 3:58:00 AM
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3-2-1....ACTION!

3--- That is the number of insurance agents i met recently... Well they call themselves financial planners. ahhh.. =) watever! I'm really impressed with this gentleman from AIA today. I'll probably get a plan from him. hahahha my dear friend said she could introduce her bro or dad to talk to me, well girl...IF YOUR BRO'S CUTE, I'LL CONSIDER! hahaha eye candy lah eye candy!

2--- That is the number of times i met Anne this week. Once on Wed and another, today. On both occasions, we met for dinner bfore a close-to 2 hour lecture on the various financial products. IT IS ALSO the number of jons i met this week. Jon teo...for shopping, a movie and just catching up....jon t, i can't spell his surname, i met for dinner... he treated! hahahaha oops..I sound like a cheapo-neh neh!

1--- That is the only time I had dinner by myself. Dom couldn't make it and all, so yeah. i ended up at Ken's eating his yummy chicken wings.

0---Is the number of time i clubbed. I was supposed to meet ren-ren today to go MOS....but yeah...i decided not to. firstly i was too lazy....secondly, dun relaly feel like meeting his other rugger friend. charms didn't have a good impression of him. i don't really care. =)

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I'm going to watch MI:3!!! I mean not that i'm excited. NOTE: I DO NOT SOUND EXCITED. I've to pretend that i'm happy i guess. It's free so yeah. =ppp I'll be watching it next thursday...hahaha i have a date with the citigroup lot. buttt whyyyyy MI3??? I meann...tom cruise isn't my typeee... oh well *shrug*

yeah...lazy tired...prob goin off to bed...i'm sooo unhappening..what happened to meeeeeee?? well i shall attempt to be more happening tmorrow... let's seeee....
1) meet wee (i hope he remembers) for dinner
2) meet jon to cycle (i ALSO hope he remembers)
3) meet ren ren to go..to some club for some bash..hahahha...i can't wait....

yeapp...i'm ghost!~

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:40:00 AM
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msn nick of the day

im cravin for indo mee!!

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it's nothign really...just 5.5 words and...after chatting with the silly girl for a while....her nick made me slightly peckish. darn it. i wanna eat now! it's quite stupid to eat instant noodles here when u can eat almost ANYTHING here. hmmm not anything anything but u get what i mean. BAH. i miss my home in aus. i dun have no home here.

and i must lament again...I WANTTTT MORE MONEYYY FORRR MYY PROOGREESSS PACCKKKAGEEEE....hello?? PAP??? DO U HEAR ME? I mean u can't sue me for this can u? bleah...

hmmm i'll be meeting anne again tomorro for dinner and ANOTHER round of insurance talk. hahahha we're now 'window'-shopping for a good policy. I'll see which dude gives me the best deal. damn it, too bad none of them are cute. what happened to all the cute dudes in singapore? maybe i'll see some during the bash? hahahahha

gosh, i sound like a KC kid...bleah *cough cough***

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:03:00 AM
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msn nick of the day!

u cannot make some1 love u, all u can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

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Hahaha..thought tthat was funny. But it doesn't work that way....if someone panics, won't that person try to run away more than give in?

Maybe giving her diamonds would work? hahahahah as the age old saying goes (hahaha i'm sprouting nonsesns here) DIAMONDS ARE A GIRLS BEST FRIEND. I guess after a while as a girl grows up, she'll learn to appreciate the beauty of...rocks. =) I was walking around aimlessly around tampines mall when i stumbled upon the Citigem Road showww... I tried on this ring and fell in love with it *sllllluuuurrrrp* now i can't help but fantasise about it. WHYYY CANNTTT I GEETTT FRIGGGIIINNN EIIGGGHTT HUNNNDRREEDD BUUUCKSSS LIIIKEEE THHHEEE RESSSTT?? Why can't the G________t pay me more to bribe me into voting for them???? =((( sniffles... that pretty, exquisite (note: it's not "pretty exquisite"...BIIIGGG diff) ring costs....600 AFTER their discount! =( So much for a discount.

guess i'll have to wait for another...sale i guess? In the meantime..work hard renee and save hard!

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:28:00 AM
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Hi everyone out there,

I seldom address my entries to anyone in particular but well this is important (well i feel this is important to me). My former cell group leader from Australia was recently diagnosed with final stage small intestine cancer, a very rare type of cancer that is hard to detect. He just underwent an operation and is resting at home (in Singapore).

Right now, if he does agree to go through chemotheraphy, there's a 5% chance of survival. If he doesn't doctors say he'll only have 6 months more. He's currently waiting for his operating wound to heal, before deciding whether to go through the session. The deal is that with or without chemotheraphy, there doesn't seem to be a better option, hence he is still deciding whether to go for it or not. At this stage according to his girlfriend, she says he's leaning towards not going for chemo.

Eitherways, please do keep him in prayer. Pray for his family (and girlfriend) that they will have the supernatural strength to go through each day, supporting him. Pray for Gabriel that he and his family do not firstly lose hope, because losing hope does not serve any purpose but to say you're giving up. Secondly please also pray for his health, that he doesn't catch any illnesses or viruses because I'm sure his immune system is pretty weak (due to the operation).

I'll be visiting him soon. So yeah... hope he's doing fine. So yeahh...please do say a little prayer for him every now and then. He needs it. Every prayer to God matters =)

Guess it's time for me to get to sleep. I'm pretty drained from work.

Love,
Renee

renzi kissed and swore @ 10:50:00 PM
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i hate staying at home...

nag, nag, nag...
cry, cry, cry...
scream, scream, scream...

i'm getting out of the house..! I'll probably go watch a movie, then...i'll decide from there...

i'm ghost~

renzi kissed and swore @ 10:13:00 AM
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D is for...

Dear - The cost of the ticket...expensiveeeee

Damn it - I paid more than a hundred for this darned show.

Disappointment - I went for the West Side Story musical and it SUCKED.

DAH!!! - I could have used the money to buy clothes and stuff from the HUGE Isetan sale!!!

Deceived - Cheated, really cheated...

Downcast - sigh...if only I hadn't been this rash.

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:03:00 AM
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