Saturday, April 30, 2005
sumptious fare-well
Chefs/bakers: terrence, janelle, winson, sufei and myself
Attendance: karen, yicheng, dannny, wendy, christie, bryan, vivik, rongyao (hope i didn't miss out anyone)
for more photos, click here
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some thing that reminded me of alvina baby
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hey A,
I miss the times when we were jus lazing around in your room. I miss the times when we watched SITC in your room. I miss your cooking. I miss your little acts of kindness. More imptly I miss YOU. sniff...
From R
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Friday, April 29, 2005
rummaging through janelle's pile of photos
EEEK EEEKS EEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKK...fugly photo. it's not jans it's me. (sounds like some breakup line) hahahahmmmm...brings back quite alot of memories...hehe....janz i want to see more photos!!! =) hahahahaha
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mambo? quicksilver?
anywayyyy....jus a short entry. yawn. it's almost the break of day. close to 7am. well i jus sent karen off. accompanied terrence in the car. wasn't much of a help because we missed the turning. dozed off in the car. couldn't do much with maps. bah. sleepy,thirsty and craving for beef noodles (tupid terr)
prior to confusions and roadds, we were at this club with 4 carloads of peeps. let' see.....keith&partner, sam&partner, vivik, kelvin, kevin, 2 partners, maggie, daryl, danny&partner, ellyn, my housemates, wendy, terrence, jiarong, rachel, damien...did i miss out anyone??
oh well...anyway time to go back to routine life, jogging, healthy eating and ......maybe it's time to see a doc. my tummy's giving me probs. maybe it's.....cancer or a growth, or worms in my stomach.
was jus wondering wat happens, or wat would i do if tat happens. yeah yeah...morbid thoughts. tat's me.
time to sleep...i'm incoherent.
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Hey K,
although we have our differences and we had a couple of disputes, i'm still glad you came over. i hope you did enjoy urself thoroughly. =) i love you and will still love in the years to come (jus as long as we dun stay together HUR HUR HUR) i'll see you back home maybe at the end of the year. *muakz*
From R
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Thursday, April 28, 2005
ARGGGGGGGGHHH FUCKEEEEEEEEDDD UPPPP!!!!
i need to punch something or someone now man....argghhh...fucking hell. i should have agreed to go to bryan's place to drink or something ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
after karen left with charlene, i took a train from the city. i wanted to alight at huntingdale and take a bus back to clayton. guess wat? i dozed off and mised huntingdale so i dropped off at clayton. LO AND BEHOLD...there were inspectors at the fucking entrance.
a lady instructor stopped me and asked me for my card. i couldn't produce the right card because my card was only a zone 1 card (i could actually drop off at huntingdale and take a bus with a zone 1 card). i explained my situation that i dozed off and had to drop off at fucking clayton, obviously without the vulgarities.
she took down my statement and confiscated my 10-trip card (which is worth about 25 bucks and mind you i still have like about close to 16 bucks worth in there....7 trips!!!) and said that she couldn't do anything. i would have to wait for about 2 weeks before the 'authorities' review my statement. she did add that i would prob have to pay a fucking fine. like wtf...seriously wat the fuck. it's jus that i missed A single stop and it's not like i didn't pay a fine. moreever i couldn't actually walk across to take a train back to bloody huntingdale. why would i wanna drop off at clayton and pay for another bus ticket?? seriously......fuck man.
what the hell....spoilt my whole mood for today. i'm fuming and i can't do anything. sniffles....
fucking transport system...fucking zone system. change the fucking system. i'm going to be so broke this month. argh! FUCK!!!!!!
SIGH......I need to sleep this off...good bye world
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
ramble ramble..
SUCCKKKERRRRRR...to think u were wishing the semester would end faster in week 1
sigh....well... wow...i'm in shock. sigh... i dun wanna go back to spore. someone thinks i should face them but...like it'll make a difference if i do wanna actually confront the situation. what can change? n-o-t-h-i-n-g..zilch. well i'm fine here so...hehehe
suckkkkeerrrrrr, cooooowaaaaaaarrrrddddddddddd.....
let's see... i'm going to meet karen later in boxhill. i'll prob go walking around by myself first because i can't go back home because i left my keys somewhere at home. bleah. forgetful me. oh well no biggie because i think i need a break. i'll prob need to get started on my debate for next week. argh! i hate public speaking. well not really, i kinda love attention in some ways but... i just dun like public speaking when i'm not confident with the topic. =) that's just me. oh well. anyway i'm quite a good pretender "yes i'm a great pretender, pretending that i'm doing wel... "so i'll live.
oh oh!!! my exam timetable's out. Let's see... I've morning papers on the...
06 June- MKF1120
08 June- SCY 3560
15 June- Com3050
All the xiong-er subjects are in the first week *gulp* arghhh i need strength! i'm already so jaded and it's only in the middle of the sem...! GOD GRANT ME THE STRENGTH!!!! pls pls pls? with a cherry on top?? i promise to be...er.... nevermind i better not make any promises... sigh
Guess the only thing i am thankful and quite proud of is the fact that i've been pretty consistent. I amaze myself sometimes...wheee!! Ken thinks that i have no time management. say that again....say that again i dare you!!!! BLEAH!!! For a person who has never done consistent readings for the past 4 semester, i tell u this is good enough man. well i shall push myself even more. I was jus thinking, if i still do alright then i'll just play till i drop next sem. HAHAHAH!!!
okok..time to go...i need to go borrow books then i'll head down to boxhill. WHEEEEeee.....
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
anyone game?
anywayyyy...jus wondering whether anyone wants to watch these couple of musicals/plays: (sigh too bad no more charms... i mean charms is not in mel currently so i can't ask her to come along with me...tsk tsk...those were the days...)
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Mamma Mia!Well it's showing till the 9th June. I didn't hear that good reviews about it but i'm trying my luck. Anyone hasn't watched it yet? Wait...did anyone watch it? Was it good???
2)
Dein Perry's Rap Dogs. I'm planning to watch this on the 17th of June. The best tickets are sold at AU$68.3)
Dirty Dancing. Well i haven't exactly caught the movie but the soundtrack is promising =) Well I'm planning to watch this on the 1st July (all these dates are tentative) and the tickets are $90 each.Weellllll for those who are interested, please let me know quick. I wanna get tickets. That will make me have something to look forward to at least. Since I'm probably not going back to Singapore =(
sniff...call me or...email me yeah =) dum dee dum...
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some random dum dee dums
***u can't expect me to call him a hunk when....he's long hair, scrawny and a dressing that blow me away...ulgh..CUT THE DAMN HAIR.
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hmm my pee has been yellow for quite some time. *mental note* i should drink water...
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for those peeps who have never tried using a electronic toothbrush, i highlight recommend it. i have no idea why i said tat but i guess it does help clean my teeth. it's psychological..hahaha. i was caught in a situation when i was going through a customs check in melbourne. stupid toothbrush prob was turned on^ during the handling of the bags. so when it was time for the person to check my bag, he warily asked me about wat was vibrating in my bag. BAH! u tink it's a vibrator meh??? TMD....even so i would be more discrete about it.
^ everything seems to have some sorta connotation. HAHAHAHA
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have u ever wondered whether china itself has a chinatown?
or...little india in india?
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jus read xh's blog...and keen's. wa lao their separate entries about the taxi driver's comments and keen's adventure with the vacuum cleaner cracked me up man. hope susu doesn't tink i'm mad laughing away in a room beside her.
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I found this 'test' intriguing....i noe there's something behind it but jon leong refuses to let me in on it. sniff...anyone willing to explain how or why this test can be done so successfully?
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time to finish up my darn essay. how do i do the annotated bibliography?? (*&*(#$&$@(*
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Monday, April 25, 2005
GOSSIP CENTRAL
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i miss these guys man
1) rencong: hahah love to call him ren ren. it's my sign of affection for that dude. hahaha well he finished his exams not long ago. congrats dude. hur hur but u still have a long way to go. HAHAHAH.. =) love him man...
2) jon teo: i love this dude too. i used to talk to him EVERY single day in JC. i wonder what we talked about, prob jus trash but hahaha he's a keeper. =) i wanna visit him in sydney now. sniff
3) jeff...the dude who saw me through my silliest and toughest times in my sec3 to sec4 transition. i miss him to bits.
4) honfei and lolo: my beloved cousins. i miss them heaps. when/if i go back in the middle of the year, i'll call them out. it's always nice to have family around. =)_
5) wee joon pin: silly dude doesn't seem to wanna talk to me. it's damn hard to even talk to him over the phone. sigh. in my 3 mths back in spore, i only saw him once, that was his birthday. =) sigh...i miss playing around in SB with him, teasing him and bullying him hahaha...
6) izzy: another SB person i miss. hahaha although he was the manager, i loved bullying him and spraying him with the hose. hAHAHHA
7) spice gals: hmmm although all of us are not as close as when we were much younger i still miss them and the old times. =)
8) the sentosa buddies (comprising of xiu, cat, kit and min) hahaha...
9) my girth sistas! hmmm i wanna come back and have SADC coffee sessions. sniffles...
10) AIK MING: that idiot... =) love him still..hehehe... u put us together and we would potentially be able to paint the town red.
11) jon loh and derong: my eating buddies alongside ken boy =)
- did i mention kenn kenn? ulgh where did there come from? hahaha i miss him, prob the most. sigh. kenneth joel elias come to melbourne? please? with a cherry on top?
sigh..back 2 work...
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i let it out
heh...*shrug*
but my tummy's still horribly uncomfortable. ulgh. think i've been baking and eating too many brownies/cookies. i tink it's become an addiction. i'm even planning to play around on wed. i wanna try out different recipes. =) speaking of wed, i need to prepare for quite a number of ppl . jus for karen *wink* well....let's see...
i'm planning to cook carbonara for the group...meaning...
- karen
- susu
- cheng
- terrence (who reminds me of simon)
- vivik (who reminds me of jon t)
- kee (who is my future husband. HAHHAHA i need my PR here lah)
- rongyao
- jon ong (aka eemin, my bestie in secondary school)
- wendy (who reminds me of...i'm still tinking.)
did i miss out anyone? yawn..stupid assignment. bloody 50%. thank god today's a recognised holiday. whoo! anzac day. whoever died in the war, thank you.
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yesterday started off bad. ulgh. stupid work. i tell you, my employer is so anal sometimes, not to mention he swings from being nice to you (good mood) to scolding you for no apparant reason (bad mood). well...my friend got scolded for smilign!!?? hmm but in the service industry shouldn't you always be pleasant to customers although some of them are dickheads and they think you're there slave? hmm i don't really agree with how some things are done but i guess...i can't say much for now because i'm only working on sundays.
my day picked up towards the end of the day where *drum roll* danny cooked!! hahaha he baked fish, while cheng and terrence cooked yummy bean paste chicken and spicy kang kung respectively. =) highlight for dinner: the baked fish. it was close to orgasmic man. some kept asking me whether i was alright. haha it was one of the most spicy dishes i've had since quite a logn time so it had to have a little bit of getting used to. but yeah...it was wat i like to say as a singapore SHIOK AH! =)
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let's see wat happened on saturday. i jus went out with ai yee (my aunt) and she suddenly asked me whether i was attached. it came to me as a startle. i quickly exclaimed "how did u noe???" hahaha well apparantly it was just a guess. oops. well we breezed through this topic but wat almost stunned me was what she said "maybe he may have another gal in singapore". well it was something to tat extent but my gosh it sounded like what my mum would say. suspicious, cynical comments...actually why should it stun me? two of the ladies came out from the same mother. ulgh (too visual for me). bahhh... well..i jus told her that i'll never know and i'm jus taking things as they come.
true very true. i can't do shit here even if anything happens. and if it really happens, then as magnanimous as it may sound so be it. initially i would stoop to low vindictive moves to make myself feel better but i would have to let it go, like how i let out my shit HUR HUR. =) well but a piece of advice to all guys and masculine-lesbians out there....never, and i mean NEVER offend a gal. seriously. if there's anything to learn, learn that man. =)
ok time to get back to doing my 50% assignment. ARGH. !
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Saturday, April 23, 2005
this friend kinda makes sense =)
"Because it is through love that often we can learn how to be like Him and we can't escape it - God is love. Love only hurts because we as humans are unable to love the way God loves.
AGAPE - unconditional"
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So what happens if we dun wanna experience love from anyone, be it a friend's love, or a lover's concern? or...What happens if we don't want to believe in the mighty word 'Love'? Does that deem us as unbelievers? i wonder...
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i simply love his songs
suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
there are times
I lose my worried mind
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
suppose I said
colors change for no good reason
words will go
from poetry to prose
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
and I
in time
will come around
I always do
for you
suppose I said
you’re my saving grace
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
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what happens...
what happens if u happen to know that someone is not who he/she portrays him/herself to be?
what happens if a confrontation arises, and yet that certain person denies the existence of that prob?
what happens when this happens? what happens?
do you...
1) close one eye, maybe two even to jus ignore circumstances happening?
2) still tink you should confront the situation and act on it?
3) continue to observe and see what happens from there?
(i'm perplexed..sigh and yes this is indeed a confusing entry. no one else knows about it except me...sigh i still hope and pray that it's jus a figment of my vivid imagination)
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Thursday, April 21, 2005
oh my gawshhh
and this other guy...my goodness...he's so singaporean. it kinda makes me feel at home, except for the fact that he's obsessed with... well have a look urself..
tsk tsk...back to work..!
(shout out to terrence for the kang kung and porridge. dun tink it was for me but thanks anyway. had a chilli high..bwahahha)
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long day ahead
i'm quite perplexed though when cheng mentioned to me that i can balance both work and play. hmmm balance? in my opinion there is no such thing as the word 'balance' in renzi's dictionary. oh well...ulgh. guess i've to live with it. enough said.
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jus very sick of food at the moment. hahha since karen's arrival, i haven't really been feeling hungry. i think we've been eating quite a bit. and when i say tat i really mean tat. take yesterday for example. i had breakkie in the morning, then i had to rush to caufield for classes. while waiting for budget lunch, karen and myself had a mocha and hot chocolate respectively at the IT building's cafe. then we had packet lunch (which wasn't much i have to add) before heading to clayton, only to have more food. i cooked for my housemates, then we baked cookies (which we happily finished) AND we had supper in rock kung after tat. amazing. well i'm sure that legitimises my prior comment that i am sick of food.
i'm not saying tat because i dun wanna get fat. hell, i'm not tat sorta gal (hopefully i dun end up like tat, fretting constantly about being fat. i think i have better things to do), but well my digestive system has been acting up. and it's just too much. ulgh...
time to jus rest my tummy, eat something light for today. yeah...after doing my work, and running, i shall settle for a light dinner.
i wonder wat's for dinner tonight...
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speaking of weight, i really wonder what goes on in girls' minds. i have to admit understanding a gal is like trying to break a brick wall with your bare hands. it's mind-boggling. sometimes i have a feeling that when a gal exclaims she's fat (when she's not), she's
a) grabbing attention from people
b) seeking consolation from ppl
c) eliciting comments/praises from others like "hell no! u're not fat! look at me"
d) (which brings me to my 4th point that she's...) trying to make you look like fuck.
And i did mention to my close galfriends (because most of them are already looking healthy and in a good shape, or in some cases, skinny) that if they do constantly say that i would in fact heartlessly agree with them. wat? any prob with that?
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yawn..yeah...have been getting little sleep. the long unproductive nights have been too much. time to stop procrastinating and get my butt cracking.
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argh..hate being the cynical me... bleah! it sucks being so rational sometimes.
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
ulgh
and double arghs and screams for my next assignment. i'm tinking of not going to the city with karen. will prob not go because i've heaps to read and the next bloody assignment's worth 50%. i feel really bad that i can't do much with karen. yesterday for example, sigh i had to go to school for a good half a day. ulgh. well the only place we went to was the milk bar =ppp ...hur hur i'll sing bryan adam's "please forgive me" to her later.
speaking of worth, my tutor's worthless. sure he's been out in the marketing arena for quite a bit but he can't teach. he mumbles, he reads from the stupid pieces of paper (prob photocopies it because he has difficulty in reading it sometimes) and he picks on me. sniff. HAHAHAHA
well time to go...argh...doom's day. fuck.
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Monday, April 18, 2005
sunday is rest day
yeap..so tat was my day on sunday..for more photos...click here...
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my weekend
after getting some work done, kee, bryan and myself picked karen up from the airport and we headed off to this AY teahouse along lygon street for a yum cha dinner. yeah YUM CHA for dinner. pretty unusual. the ambience was good but the food was little pricey. by the time we got the bill, we had to pay quite a bit AND we weren't full at all. so we headed down to shit-i-can't-remember-the-place for dessert. tat was pretty much it for friday.
we did some grocery shopping with my aunt, played captain's ball in the afternoon and went to river kwai for dinner. =) hahaha it was quite an eventful day (with rongyao, kee, terrence, vivik, karen, susu, christie and janz), especially when janelle made a comment that......terrence reminded her of...TELETUBBIES!!! hahaha...let me try to visualise:
say hello...EH OH!welllllllllll....errrrrrrrrmmmmmm...oh well..terrence and vivik dropped by our place where we made cheesecake. =) so tat was saturday.
i'm still uploading photos for sunday so...yawn..will update soon again..
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
my head hurts
it has been hurting since i woke up. took a nap for about 3 hours. i want to sleep some more.
but i can't sleep. i need to finish up my assignment. ulgh.
will update soon i guess. ulgh. God i need 48 hours in a day. I need 60 hours a day... I need 72 hours a day!!!!! hahahha shit muaz is incoherent now. fuck. well at least i can remember a BEET of my 12-timetable.
a shout-out for alvina. i love u! *muakz* remember i love u yeah. will call u when i finish this wretched assignment.
bah
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
in light of the "thinking programme"
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it's a gloomy day
anyway i'll be done with my readings. argh. too much info i hope i can compress whatever i have to 2500 words. hahaha stupid question has two parts to it. hope i get at least a D for this. in order to do tat i need to surf for more blogs. ANY SUGGESTIONS??? hahaha my essay question is on blogs, so i guess that gives me the reason (not excuse) to surf the net, yes? no?
well i happened to come across the apple website and they have discounts for students!!!! ......for US students (*&*(@$&#$*(@&( bah.... wat about struggling students in like australia like meeeee........???? I want a nice discount!!!!!!!! bahhh
oh well...life's quite fair eh? bleah!
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
h-e-l-p
hmm anyway the exam timetable's out already. can't seem to access it though. sigh... life's just too fair to be true.
oh well...from next week onwards, i have at least one assignment due each week. ARGH... assignments are as follows:
week 7: com3050 essay (40%)
week 8: scy 3560 essay (50%)
week 9: com 3090 debate and report (15%)
week 10: mkf 1220 report (30%)
week11: mkf 1220 study file (15%)
weel 12: com3090 essay (60%)
arggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
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Monday, April 11, 2005
this show was brought to you by the letters N-U-S
check it out before nus removes this video =)
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
another friend's gone
last night we sent gerard off. hmm i wonder whether one would be numb after sending so many off. i recall allan saying he's used to the fact that many friends leave after pursuing their education here. sigh i dun really wanna get used to this but i guess it will happen. BAH! i hate airports! i hate goodbyes! damn it. if only we had some sort of a transporter of some sort, that enables a person to travel to another country in an instant! =p
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