Saturday, February 28, 2004



renzi kissed and swore @ 12:16:00 PM
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Hmm it’s 1.52pm I’m probably going to shift over my stuff from bryan’s place. Sigh…got so much to do…don’t think I can go over to the city..need to go to church…anywayyy…hmmm very distracted….now jus saying that I’m damn tired…

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i wrote that bit jus now...wellllll....i remember typing an entry in danny's computer...shall grab that soon... =)

well i wanted to rent a mini van to move stuff over from bryan's place, but byron adviced that i should call bryan...will talk to him later when i see him for dinner i guess...

hmm i'm getting hungry again...dieee.... i shared a carrot cake (a huge one) and a bowl of prawn dumplings with my aunt today. we went for grocery shopping and had lunch together. i didn't buy much, mainly fruits.

we also went down to an optus shop and apparently i can't sign another contract for the same line. (ie i can't sign another 2 yr contrct for the same number on top of what i have)...so rigid...sigh so diff from spore. sigh looks like i need to wait till i get back to singapore to get a phone.sigh. my dear phone (i shall name her mindy...why her? she's damn temperamental..always hanging on me..sigh.....mindy...AHHAHAHAH....sheesh..fancy naming everything i have) you have to hang in there! sigh...

yeap and well optus doesn't give much leeway for their employees to make decisions etc. in addition the employees don't have data (or maybe a system for all the data collected from customers.) i mean doesn't it make things so much easier for both parties? and it makes things more efficient? i really miss efficiency. in aus, when you call operators, you'll prob have to wait for at least 15 minutes before you hear a human's voice. sigh... for me to change or upgrade my plan to a 55 dollar one, i have to call up the hotline and speak to the operator. sheesh. if i need to check whether i have the rollback service, i also have to speak to the operator. (no wonder when i was complaining to danny and asking him to call optus to bug them about our lines, he practically snapped at me and said " go and wait lah..i can't be bothered to lah!"

eeks! i jus went to the toilet...there's a spider in their toilet!!!!!!!! eeks!! hahah

well after typing my blog yesterday, i went for a car ride with andrew and when we were on our way back, he turned to me and said "hey seriously tell me the truth eh...is josh goin after you?" then i was like "huh?" it was a sudden question, well nt exactly, the guys (ie jon n andrew) think that josh likes me...sheesh... he only calls occasionally wat..

anyyywayyy can't remember what i wanted to say...sighh....

well i shall maybe take a shower and sleep before having my first dinner (graham's mum cooked a feast for all of us) and following that i have to go for the next dinner with the HUMs...(minus CH...) then maybe i have to go bowling...but me tired liaozz...shall hmm call giap and DuA him again...gulp...

sigh...was jus thinking, after this year, i'll be really lonely, so many people would have gone back to their respective countries (if they're not applying for PR that is...) and sighh... man...i'd be really sad...but i guess like what ryan said, it's very normal...aiks..

oh was talkin to my aunt and she mentioned that my mum asked her whether i should come back if something should happen to my granny...aikz...hai~

i'd better go back...i'm craving for another peach...think graham's mum's still cooking...shall offer my services...

=)

wow no one's at home now....the guys went out for grocery shopping, they're having a party today and they invited me. well it's all booze and cigs...not too keen lah...the cigs put me off i guess....hmm everyone smokes in the household except for jon..shall ask him why..hahaha

and hmm jim asked me to go clubbing together with him and stephan....he asked me to ask the rest ie charms n byron..but prob not going....hmmm

okok time to go...me very very tired...shall go check my mail firsts....

sigh...oh ya! need to type out my minutes...need to install programs for my computer...hope the mail comes in...my mum sent a diskette (my back-up files) from spore...hope i get it soon...

hmmm ok time to go...

it's 2.58pm


renzi kissed and swore @ 11:57:00 AM
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Friday, February 27, 2004


Hi

This morning, mama is complaining of stomach pain again & quite breathless too.
Hopefully, it is just like one of those days, nothing serious.
Ku Por 4 is up there.

Yesterday, Ah Hong's mother from China came to Singapore, she is now
staying over for a few days, should be returning on Sunday.

Before I forget, remember the key pendant and chain that I gave you
before your departure ? It is not costume jewellery thing, they are real white gold.

Even if you dont like it, do treasure it, keep it and pass on......
This is the chain given by por por when I was 21, I wore the pendant
for 1 year and the chain with other pendants for quite a while,
and kept it for 30years till now !

Take care.

May need to go back early...


MUM

renzi kissed and swore @ 9:41:00 PM
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wow almost two weeks have come and gone...man!

it's been a tiring week i must say, with club days and orientation trips.

yesterday (on thursday) i went to uni for clubs day. helped out. felt giddy in the middle of the day. we had a couple more people sign up and yeah. most of our gift packs were given away and our free movie tickets were also given away..hahah winner was....*drum roll** fangwei...mr garang.

well it was scorching hot and thank goodness we were under the protection of the mighty wall behind us =)

the gals at the booth (ie erm..actually mainly charms and myself) were commenting that there are not much cute guys liaos ...tsk tsk..hahah

mananged to ask tim and stephan to join...but in return me has to sacrifice for SAM and join the beer-drinking german club...hahah sigh..the things i do for SAM =) hahahaha

after the clubs day, i had a short chat with allan once again, regarding activities...ie MMN and MCF...i need at least one president!! i can't do both..if not i'll drop dead and die by the end of the year...

ARGh

can't really remember what happened...OH went to watch PASSION OF THE CHRIST...very very gory...quite an accurate depiction of what Christ went through.... erm...but some people may not be able to take it i guess..a couple went to watch the movie with charms danny janelle ryan and myself and most of them cried. erm...well at least from what i could hear (the sniffing and erm...wiping of the eyes from the side of me eyes) but scary...janelle and ryan were laughing when Christ was being whipped...hmmm

right after the movie, ryan dropped us off at humma's and we had dinner there. humpa cooked pasta and yeah...think i ate a lot...compared to everyone...oh well!!

=)

guess wat about a week back humma (jiew) gave me a vibrator.... =p and the guys were playing with it at the booth... =p hmm are vibrators meant to be hard? or are they suuposed to be soft?? erm... no idea man..

ANNNNYYYYYWAAAAYYYYY

wat happened today?

let's see...was roped in last minute yesterday by by-the-ron-ron...maybe i was being sensitive,or tired, or both but he made it sound like i was really the last alternative and he had no choice...hmm i felt kinda incompetent and like i couldn't do anything right, yeah i may be blur but hey give me a chance dude...

anywayy that was yesterday...today...well woke up extra early, well tried to... and was there earlier than 8.15 (the time that byron told me to come)....and helped out. the arrangement for people to board the buses were terribly disorganised, nothing else to say about it...

i was in byron's bus and well had fun getting to know a couple of them.

thai-fin (sha) was in my bus...she's not NAI KAN...but well sweet looking nonetheless (she cycled to school!) =) smiley-face was in my bus as well. the reason why i called him smiley-face is because he keeps smiling, at me at everyone for that matter...

=)

and hmm well kept looking around for potential people to recruit..heheh i talked to one bus, kee talked to the other...sigh...n one really talked to the other bus, well....because someone was strict about the seat belts...so sighhhh
haahha well and i also did pass some forms to some people whom i thought had potential...

well i like orange bus..heheh quite a good mix of ppl.. had some from indonesia (minah, irough...dunno how to spell their names)......holland, thailand, the philippines, laos, malaysia (smiley-face!!), india, sri lanka, france... =) hope i didn't miss out any country...come to think of it...dun think my bus had anyone from spore... =)

i went around asking everyone which country they're from and heheh took down notes (on how to say "hello") in their language..hehehe and when i talked to them about MUISS, i started offf by greeting them... =)

the trip basically was very scenic....pity i didn't have any camera with me... sighh...
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we ended up going to caulfield to end of the day...and after dinner we had the traditional bush dance...it was fun...i kept giggling at the one of the dances when we had to jump up and shout "(shit i forgot)"! hahahahha oops

well met a couple of ppl during this trip, some from other campuses....soon tee....pamela, sharon, kevin, etc...

talked even more to new people...man....i'm quite tired of opening my mouth now..hahah

lazy to entertain...

very burnt now....even my lips feel swollen now...sigh..

ANYYYWAYY...shall end of by typing down a few of the memorable bits of today's trip...

--> thai-fin gal was talking to me about her housemates and started comparing chinese from china (ie her housemates who weren't too friendly to her) and chinese from singapore. i didn't really mind but she said that those from china are not that friendly etc...and beside me was jennifer from china. she immediately butted in to retort back at thai-fin's comments. wow.
(this is a scenario of KENA BANG..hehe)

--> i managed to make friends with jennifer. she was very tense and was scared to take the chair lift down arthur's seat (ac/d-ing to jon now, it collapsed a year ago...gulp) it was her second time going on a chair lift and heheh the first time she took the chair lift, she was so scared she didn't open her eyes at all... we chatted all the way down this time round and she didn't close her eyes at all....*TRIUMPH* hehhee

--> can't-rem-her-name kept choosing what she wanted for lunch....no one did that except for her... (among the guides i noe that is)

--> during the bush dance, met this guy from spore...looks like des foo...hahah better looking... =) and he said i looked familiar...

--> we all ran towards byron during the bush dance when we were in circles...he was some kinda target...very farrrneyyy....and well he looked like he didn't expect it...

--> hahahah the blur confused look on graham (the dude from HK)'s face when we had our last dance

--> corrile (sheet..dunno how to spell her name) and her rigid-ness

== very tired....

going to sleep soon...if kenneth doesn't call me soon...

(it's 11.57pm)

renzi kissed and swore @ 8:57:00 PM
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Wednesday, February 25, 2004


hehe....wow let me update wat have done so far......

think i've written about monday...soooo....

Tuesday
mann...i can't even remember... sheesh! oh...i went to the clinic to get my teeth done...i wanted to go there early (since i couldn't remember the designated time slot) to get my teeth fixed and rush back to school...buttt...i waited for almost an hour, and gave up. i rushed over to uni (had to run...almost fainted, no breakkie) and managed to catch the bus with the peeps. helped out during orientation. from the orientation program, MUISS was supposed to bring the ppl, who signed up, to the city. we reached railton (sheet dunno how to spelll) towers first, had a walk around and watched a movie. got some ideas for MUISS activities already... =)

then we walked to take a tram to queen vic market. on our way there, i made a joke with my group (sze min and myself were guides...she's a blur guide..hehehe left more than half of our group in a tram by themselves...! hehheh) about the chicks and mother hen....and sze min, the "father cock" ...HAHAHA... =)

anyyywayyy we left the group there for free n easy, and went for lunch. dum dee...

can't remember much foe the rest of the day.

only in the bus, byron made me talk about MUISS...nice move~ heheh think it's necessary since we haven't really gotten a chance to 'show' ourselves. and well ahahha PLUS i love having the mic... =) love interacting with peeps... well told them briefly about MUISS with camel almost shouting "free tea!!! free coffee" from behind...well MUISS is not aallll about that...oh well....then byron helped me out by elaborating...heehh =)

too bad i didn't really help much for orientation...laziness, and sickness should be my excuese i guess...too bad...it'll be fun interacting with the newbies...shall do that next year...without fail...since it's my last year... =)

and well although it was only brief (a day) it was nice to see, talk to new i students =) also helping to promote MUISS...

okayzzz...after that...walked home and bathed, the whole household went over to i-forgot-her-name's house to pay rent....and thennnnn....we went home with a nice home-cooked-food scent greeting us...yumm..had great food...thanks to graham's mum... =)

watched survivor and watever on tv....then went over to jon/andrew's place to use the internet... =)

hahaha those guys damn ji xiao......they are a fun bunch and well seems like they constantly love to party..hmmm

(oh those guys are calling me from downstairs...shall BO HEW)

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wednesday (today)

slept late woke up early...i'm a panda...well managed to wake up early (i have to anyway when school starts..sigh...my timetable sucksssss) and jan, ryan and myself went to school... we set up the booth and we stationed ourselves and well talked the day away.... =)

met so many ppl.....and so many ppl passed by me...MAN!! hahaha =) and scary thing is i can say or even almost shout "HELLO" so so affectionately and i would turn to charms or whoever and say "i can't remember his/her name" bahhh...i must try to remember ppl's names....i've very very bad memory when it comes to names...esp if it's chinese names, or malay, indian for that matter...english names are always welcome..heheheh =)

well met mervin (forced him to sign up), met his friend joel...both of them are doing medicine, htey were compalining about the halls...welll ZUN ZUN i saw this indian gal who's looking for accomodation...maybe i can ask them whether they're interested in moving in together... =) shall call them up tomorrow..hehe

hmmm who else...met some ppl from orientation (yesterday) ..the muiss trip...hmmm let's see.....tim, stephan, mia....erm...can't remember the rest of their names
met elia...haven't seen her around...so it was quite nice...esp she's from AC maaaa...heheh

let's see... can't remember liaozz...but it seemed like a pretty long day...and very hectic from time to time i must add....and hahah i can say it was quite a success today...and hmmm well a pat on the back for peeps who helped out, the sam comm, and jon ahahah and by-the-ron-ron....

another long day...but me need to zao early...need to talk to allan....need to do loads...hahaha need to find quotes also for the various activities...

after the club day.... had the execs meeting....which lasted for two hours...reached home at about 8 plus...mAN!!! hahah thank goodness i could get a ride off geoffrey...because.....me was cold....stupid me forgot to grab a pullover...

well so here i am,....after me shower....seated and staring at the computer...stupid guys jus shouted again...asked me when...or how long i've been with kenneth...i said in december 2 years back...then they said we should break up...they got someone for me downstairs...sheesh *shrug*

okok....time to go soon...need to call darling soon =) but tired...prob talk to him for a while....man..havent replied anyone since like 10.30...oops...

hungryyyy...had mushrooms for dinner...lazy to even cook instant noodles...shall TEH danny to cook later..hehehe

time to go...... (it's 11pm)

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to end off....shall cut and paste what me mum wrote in her first email to me... :

"Hi

Your holidays in Singapore had come fast and gone...

It's just a little disappointing that not only we have not been sharing much time together
as a family, also I am disillusioned by your recent indifferent attitude held.

There seems to be lots of resentment , grudges against me (for any reasons??).

Whatever it is, we hope you can be more open and speak up your mind.

Don't forget, WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU no matter what.



Loving you always.
MUM "
"


renzi kissed and swore @ 8:08:00 PM
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Monday, February 23, 2004



renzi kissed and swore @ 2:39:00 PM
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hmm i'm in jon's place once again...the guys invited me over for a while, so i deicded to use the internet.

ANYYWAYYYY andrew's disturbing me now...cannot concentrate..bleh...

will write soon...newae been thinking about this...if you claim to like/love someone wouldn't you wanna spend at least some money on her? i mean if you compare the price of calling overseas and buying a new digicam, which would be cheaper?? shall talk about that further today...later that is..

wat did i do today..was feeling sick and very tired in the morning, so i msg-ed janelle and told her i couldn't meet her. then i went back to sleep and woke up at about 1... i cooked some mushrooms and my leftover hor fun and had lunch. watched a little tv and started packing my boks....tat's about all i did...need to do more stuff...sighh..guess wat? i can't upload photos beecause my photos were all deleted...basket..

hmm shall go off now to sleep...feeling tired again..sianzzz...

(it's 5.30pm)

renzi kissed and swore @ 2:29:00 PM
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Sunday, February 22, 2004


dearest...

thanks for calling me yesterday... =) it really made my day, made me feel that, hey someone cares, hahha! well yeah you are after all my best friend and when i heard your voice while grocery shopping i was both surprised and glad, happy i must add =)

well it's ur birthday tomorro, hope i can keep awake till then..hehe to call you in singapore. hope you pick up your phone if i do call... hehehe

happy birthday to you my ever so beautiful best friend, don't let ANYONE belittle you because you yourself know that you're the biggest giant if you want to! =)

this entry is dedicated to you, thanks for being a great friend, i love you...


renzi kissed and swore @ 3:51:00 PM
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well i'm in jon's room now again..siann....ahahha well i woke up today with a terrible sore throat and a lump of phlegm stuck in my thoat..hahah i'll spare you the details but yeah...was feeling like shit..immediately i took medicine for phlegm and used an inhaler, then laid on my bed and sucked on a losenge (dunno how to spell) thank goodness i still have one week to recover...maybe i shall eat the medicine i bought from spore...

hmmm den soonafter byron called and we had lunch at the glen with charms and his new housemate, shangwei (?)...

then came home and found jon and andrew playing ps (surprise surprise) in danny's room..ahhaha

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what happened yesterday

got woken up by aiyee and jasmine, hahah den brushed up and went grocery shopping with the two. had lunch wit them then i went home. after that i stayed at home and rested... watched mrs doubtfire and hung out (hung out??) with graham's mum and aunt..hahaha... the rest of my housemates were out so yeah...

someone made my day yesterday.... =) thanks for the phonecall gal!!!! *muak*

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what happened the day before (friday)

MUISS BBQ...den went to buy stuff for the household with my housemates...den went to meet byron n gang in chaddy...was very tired when i met them so after walking for a while i jus NUAed at a seat...

let's seeee.....had dinner with charms and byron in the end....at rokung(?)

hmmm nothing much lioazzz..

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oh gotta go and type minutes soon....me computer finally up and running....but most of my memory's gone..sighh...need to look for the disk of SAM minutes...hope i brought the backup disk back to auss....if not i'm scrwed....

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me jus went to the tv page to check out what there is for the week..this is wat i got...

monday
NINE--> 7pm: frasier ; 7.30pm: friends ; 8pm: malcolm ; 9.30pm: sex in the city
TEN--> simpsons (6), punked (7.30), newly weds (8), queer eye for the straight guy (8.30)

tuesday
NINE--> survivor(7.30), CSI (8.30)
SEVEN --> alias (8.30)
TEN--> simpsons (6), everybody loves raymond (7.30) , becker(8), simpsons (8.30)

wednesday
NINE --> CSI: Miami (8.30)
TEN --> Simpsons (6), American idol(7.30)

thursday
NINE --> extreme makeover (9.30)
SEVEN --> My restaurant rules (7.30)
TEN --> Simpsons (6), Charmed (7.30)

friday
TEN --> simpsons (6,7.30)

saturday
NINE--> gilmore girls (7.30)
TEN --> simpsons (6) , 7th heaven (6.30) , monk (10)

TODAY'S PROGRAMME------
SEVEN-->
8 simple rules for dating my teenage daughter (6.30-7.30 :Cate's parents help console their daughter and grandchildren as they cope with the loss of family patriarch Paul. Cate and the kids must each deal with the loss of the beloved patriarch of the Hennessy family in their own way. Special guest stars James Garner and Suzanne Pleshette.
my restaurant rules (7.30-8.30: Young couples, with a dream of starting up their own business, will be given a budget and the chance to design, renovate, staff, launch and oversee the day to day running of their own restaurant. These couples will battle it out ... the winner keeps their restaurant - the losers close shop! Hosted by CURTIS STONE.)
save the last dance (8.30-11: JULIA STILES stars as Sara, a young girl who is thrust into an unfamiliar world when she enrols in an inner city virtually all-black Chicago high school following her mother's untimely death. There, she finds solace and affection with a handsome, gifted and popular African-American student, Derek. The romance flourishes because the pair share a passion for dance - she was once an aspiring ballerina, and he the crown prince of a local hip-hop hangout. However, the couple faces a growing antagonism toward their budding romance, as well as struggling with their individual obstacles. At stake are Derek's hopes for a better life and Sara's rediscovery of her dreams.)
picture perfect (11-1:Jennifer Aniston stars in this romantic comedy as an ambitious career woman who is determined to snare a promotion and the office romeo to go with it! Life is anything but perfect for Kate. For reasons she can't fathom, the attractive and talented advertising director is having trouble advancing her career. Then there's Kate's meddlesome mother who wants nothing more than to see her daughter marry and settle down. Frustrated, Kate sets her sights on co-worker Same, but unfortunately, Sam is only interested in women who are already spoken for. However, she manages to achieve both goals by pretending she's engaged to Nick, a man she met at a wedding and barely knows. But her carefully constructed fictional life comes face to face with reality when her boss wants to meet her 'picture perfect' fiancé. When Kate hires Nick to pose for one evening as her beloved, they both begin a crash course in each others lives. However, as Nick gets to know Kate, he believes that she is the woman for him and Kate is about to learn what truly makes the perfect mate and that a picture is worth much more than a thousand words. )

TEN -->
american idol (7.30:A talented group of unknowns perform their hearts out for the chance to become America's Idol . Watch as contestants perform, and judges critique for the ONE who will become American Idol 3.)

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yeap yeap...time to go now...me shall go watch show liaozz...me will go off......heheheheh



renzi kissed and swore @ 3:47:00 PM
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renzi kissed and swore @ 2:28:00 PM
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Saturday, February 21, 2004


dearest...

hmmm... you didnt exactly made me cry...was jus frustrated and irritated that i can't get my computer started....and this would cause alot of delays in my work..esp SAM...

then i'm irritated, agitated and sick because of the lack of sleep and the terrible sore throat that i'm experiencing now...think it's a sign that i'm going to be real sick

on top of that dunno lah..guess this has been going through my head...if u wanna go ahead with the 0 dollar week, how did u get back home? with a cab lor... maybe ur friend paid for it...if so i have noting to say...

but do not feed me the "it's worth it" crap when u dun even wanna buy the calling card lor...u said in one of the previous emails that you're willing to pay for my SMS but even this, you could always get a calling card lor...i dunno lah..maybe i'm just being particular...or even unreasonable...call me that if you want i guess....

but so where exactly do i stand now?

that's all i have to say for now...

renzi kissed and swore @ 1:49:00 AM
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Friday, February 20, 2004


ever felt helpless because u can't do anything. all you can do is wait...and stand and stare...sighhh

i feel very sad...

got a long day today...BBQ for MUISS....before that an introductory session for MUISS so ve to be there....

before i forget....things to do:

1)compile list for 4c
2)set up email a/c
3)SAM stuff
4)fix me computer..sniff
5)MUISS stuffffff

arggghh

anyway in MUISS lounge now...damn tired.....slept over at jiew's only could get to sleep at bout 5-6am....woke up at about 8...hmmm forthe first time i slept in a warm environment...i need my quilt...dying...

okokk....time to go...sighh

renzi kissed and swore @ 7:16:00 AM
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And the Lord answered, "Have you seen My spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts,all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time,have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -- and she will do everything with
only two hands."
The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day.Wait until tomorrow to finish."
"But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this Creation that is so close to My own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have Made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made Her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish." "Will she be able to think?", asked the angel. The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the Woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a Tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief And her pride."

The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of Everything!
Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!! Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss can help to heal a broken heart.
Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning!
They bring joy and hope.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

However if there's one flaw in women, it is that they tend to forget their worth.

renzi kissed and swore @ 7:13:00 AM
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Thursday, February 19, 2004


i'm barely surviving here...sniffles...no line, no internet, now no computer. i jus installed some stupid SONY program and the whole blardy computer jus doesn't work now... sigh...going to bryan and jiew's place to bunk over with a couple of the peeps who went for CH's farewell thing today...will ask one of the guys to help me with my computer.... sighhh

maybe i should ask jon now eh...since i'm at his place now....hmmm hold on...

wait...he's watchin tv...hmm shall ask someone over in jiew's place...sighh

i won't be able to get a line till 5th of march..argggghhhh....tat means i can't talk to him till then...this sucks...this really sucks...

wa laooo...2 weeks leh!!!!!

arggghhh

ssniiifflesss

hmmm wat happened today? went around to look at furniture with von von and by-the-ron-ron.... then we went to this place at doncaster for dinner. we all were stinkin so we decided to actually go home and bathe before we head off to jiew's place. ryan, my neighbour would be driving so..heheh

tomorrow, got loads of plans...first got BBQ...den..dunno lah...lazy to plan for now...maybe get my bed...

argghh..this sucks....i can't call kenneth...it's bugging me...argh!!!!!

let's see....

wat else...oh yesterday...

went for dinner at (dunno how to spell this...le mos) this place and had loads of BBQ food....fried food...mannn!! then we headed off to the beach to SABOH gerard...hehehe can't imagine the tempt of the sea water...

before that went to ikea and chaddy with danny and graham ....bought stuff for the household...

well tink when alvina comes i tink we should have a small mini meeting for our household..

argghhh....tink i'm going to jiew's place to use the internet as well...need to write more stuff in the blog...now i shall beg jon to check me computer..heheh

ok....it's 11.37pm....arggghhhhhhhhhh (spore time:8.37pm)

renzi kissed and swore @ 8:36:00 PM
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Tuesday, February 17, 2004


hmmm in jon's room now, he has internet conenction.

anyway we're having a meeting now (we=danny, graham n myself) for wat to get for the house, who's sharing wat and yeah...)

very distracted now...

so wat did i do today? jus have a meeting i guess...tired...

got everything from giap, and kee sooo....will pack later...

=)

hmmm....can't think..hahaha

let's see...yeah...oh well.... *shrug* sheesh..don't even know why i'm writing this entry.

well tomorrow i'm supposed to help out for orientation but i'm lazy, i'll probably go hunting for furniture....

argghh so much to pack....

okok..time to go...

renzi kissed and swore @ 10:15:00 PM
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hmm... i'm in e MUISS lounge...and well waiting to go to ryan's bro's place to check out furniture etc...hmmm

tired...dunno why...

slept in danny's room while he attempted to sleep in mine. i have nothing with me...no bedsheet no noting so he offered his bed...hehehe then after abou an hour sleepin in my room, he felt really cold and went to play PS...hahaha oops


ANYYYWAYYYY got two meetings today...sigh...coinciding dieee...

need to go now...argggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

(it's 4.53pm...)


renzi kissed and swore @ 1:53:00 PM
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Sunday, February 15, 2004


hmm it's almost 12am..sighh...going back to melbourne tomorrow...to make things worse....i have to go for the earlier flight, which is in the morning...that means...no kenneth no karen..sighh

hmm argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

well let's see..had lunch with the gals in secret recipe, then met kenneth. hahaha he put me in a cab to go home and i burst into tears..

when i went home, i told mum i wanted to go out and she scolded me and didn't allow me to...so much for wanting to meet karen for a short while..sigh

have already packed...i have almost 40 kg with me...got SAM stuff and loads of crap...next time i shall travel light..

well yesterday had a really long day...

because the night before (friday) i slept really late...and had to wake up at about 7+am to wash up and meeet persis. we went to NUS to look for books, but there weren't any. so i drove her to FMPS so she could pass sumthing to yanting (?) and then we went to clementi and i found one stats book so yeah..

THEN....i went to tampines to collect byron and kee's stuff, then i drove down to siglap to return the DVD....

THEN had to fetch mum and return the car. went for lunch with family.

after that, i borrowed the car and i went to charms' place to collect the SAM stuff. after that because i wanted to meet melvin to pass him his present, i drove all the way to PS, but the carpark was full and haha i missed a turn and drove out to the exit so i msg-ed him and told him that i wasn't gong to meet him (he was watching a movie anyway)

THEN went to meet rencong at tampines once again. passed him stufff, spoke to his lil cousin, and set off to church

the youth had this ice cream thingie going on, but went there to meet kenneth.

i introduced tina to a few of them, then we went to parkway.

after meeting jon, we walked to a couple of restaurants only to find everywhere crowded, and many in the waiting list, so we settled for this JIM place in siglap where they sold ZHI CHA....hahaha

then we went to gelare butttt...hmmm was crowded so we decided to go to the airport.

i dropped kenneth at his place (so he could take the car) and i drove the rest of the peeps (Tina, Jon, DR) to my place where i returned the car.

said hi to the folks who were visiting, and we set off to the airport. it was crowded but after waiting in the queue for a while, we got seats and had our ice creams.

tina was quite bitchy to the attendants when they handed us the bill because we waited for 20 minutes jus to get e bill..way to go cousin! hehehe while she was giving them sound feedback, i couldn't contain myself because it's the first time seeing her so stern..hehehe

okok...nothing much already..tied..but oops tired but need to do loads...anyway...

things that i still need to do...
1) compile list for 4C
2) set up email a/c
3) SAM stuff..sigh..
4) defrag computer

YAY!!!>.....got more to do when i get back to aus..sighh

hmm called karen jus now and teared too..hahaha

sheesh..i'm such a cry babay.....

ok time to call dear...

renzi kissed and swore @ 11:21:00 PM
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Saturday, February 14, 2004


valentine's day is a load of crap..hahah but for those who believe in such a day, er... happy V day...

anyyyway...jus a short entry..me damn tired...

woke up feeling more tired than when i dozed off...

went for lunch with kuku(cheryl-anne's mum), granduncle2 his wife and tina in bugis hahah went to this place which served dim sum conveyer style...not bad..but just a novelty...i'd rather have dim sum er...the conventional way..

after that...left the three ppl....tina and myself walked around. we took another nice photosticker, bought loads of stuff....i bought something for charms, humpa, rencong... =)

denn....went to bras basah to check whehther i can get books before going back to aussie...MAN!!! i saw my soci text which cost less than half the price in aus...bleh...

well it was a wastedtrip to BP....

headed to town...went to SB for a while...den met karen.

she finally did her tattoo..hahah paid for it...

den i went to cut me hair...hahah wanted to dye my hair...was SOOO tempted to bUTTT...i thought to myself, i shall try not to dye my hair this year...let me hair rest...hehehe

=)

den wen for BA CHOR MEE with tina and karen. introduced BCM to tina, and otak as well... =) ermm...tat needed rephrasing...

hmm dennn...drove karen back...packed my bag for a while...den drove to the airpor to fetch granduncle2's son.

yeap.....den continued packing me bag....

sianzzz...

my nose is leaking...okok...wat else to do...

1)see the doc to get medicine... (can't find me inhaler)
2) compile list for 4C
3) set up email a/c for spices, 4C
4) collect stuff ro byron and kee
5) go to parkway and get money
6) gt kaya
7) collect stuff from charms
8) go to clementi
9) SAM stuff
10) defrag computer
11) return library book
12) return dvd..

was supposed to do something else too..BUT can't tink now..tired..

oh kena-ed a fine..sighh...parked heheh on a double yellow line..but when dad parked there, there was no summon...damnit

hahah

ok tired sian....loads of emtions conflictin in me now...bleh... dun really wanna sleep tonight..sighh...gotta like do loads...and officially 2 more days to sigh...erm... before i leave..argghhh

(it's 2am)

need to wake up eary to meet pers...


renzi kissed and swore @ 2:04:00 AM
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Friday, February 13, 2004


well it's close to noon...and i'm feeling like shit physically that is...don't have much rest though...... anyway going out with tina soon...very tireddd..yawn..

mama's looking good today...she even flared up..hahahah =) that's good... for a person who only drinks soup, that's a feat i must say..

let's see... wat else...got two more things to do...
11) see a doc to get medicine
12) pack my bag =)

===

hmm time to stop wasting time..HAHAHAHAHAA =)

gtg now...

renzi kissed and swore @ 11:52:00 AM
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things to do:
1)compile list for 4C
2) set up email a/c for 4C, spices
3) look at books
4) hair apt
5) meet karen to do tatoo
6)collect stuff for byron and kee
7) transfer money
8) collect stuff from charms
9) SAM stufffffff
10) defrag my computer..dunno why...
==

hahha i'm hungry again...these few days have been getting severe hunger pangs...sighhh

argh... i dunno what else i'm supposed to bring back...AIKS!!!! or even buy back

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:16:00 AM
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dumzzzzzzzz....

i'm sniffing now, hate my sinus problem...never get that in aussie..hehehe that's one thign that i'm looking forward to... =)

i'm jus thinking whether i should go back later because of my granny. everyone's going to leave on monday and tues, she's going to be lonely once agai...sigh...

*burp*

had quite a good meal today....met alvin tan for lunch. we had a burger each in BK...hahaha i'm going to miss mushroom swiss...

i'm also going to miss TEH...TEH tarik...

can't really think of anything that i'll miss, food-wise that is...

then went to watch a movie with rencong. it was ALONG CAME POLLY. very predictable plot, quite funny nonetheless. if anyone wishes to watch it, wait for the VCD. save the money. hhahaha

hmm worrying for rencong now, but guess he'll pick himself up. talked to him yesterday (thus, had to stop writing abruptly) and yeah talked till almost 4+am. went back to the living room and surprisingly kenneth was still up. i called him to wish him a good night and attempted to sleep.

i didn't have a good night's sleep. bad. woke up at leas once every hour. but in the morning woke up at 7+ to meet kenneth. went to his place and slept. couldn't sleep much also and was late for my apt with alvin. oops. sigh...

must curb that habit.

hmm nice seeing alvin once again but haha somehow it's really hard to talk to him. we keep talking about things on the surface i guess. very diff to break into his shell. but it's quite a great journey exploring someone who's as different, reserved and mysterious as he is. well i'm still uncovering things about him and well hope i can get to the core and heart of him =) well at least before i die..hehehe

well didn't do much after that. had dinner with kenneth although i didn't have much appetite..hahahh =)had pasta the second time since i came back

okok..time to talk to tina....gotta do loads tomorrow...shall cut my hair, maybe streak it, look for books compare prices, collect something i made for byron and kee, and wel pay for karen's tatoo..sighh..that gal..tsk tsk...

but *sheepish grin* i think initially i was the one who was encouraging her to do the tatoo... =p

stupid me...

hHAHAHHHAHAH

okok...oh yAAAAA~~~ last time i shall complain about mum...for now,....

she complained that i don't spend enough time at home... *shrug* i was with tina, at home for the 1st 2 days since she touched down. then yesterday i was with HERRRRR and dad...sheesh...and for only ONE day when i'm out she makes a big fuss...sheesh....well when she was lamenting, like how i am doing so now, i just went "AHUH AHUH AHUH"...ghahah at least i didn't retort back... =)

yawn..shall go offline now....me sneezing badly...

ohh it's past 12 already.....

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:12:00 AM
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Thursday, February 12, 2004


test test? hahha using my computer in the living room. i am sleeping in the livin room with my cousin. hahah just finished watching CSI and my cousin's watching DARK ANGEL now hehe...she's drooling over this dude...*shrug*

before this i managed to catch AMERICAN IDOL 3 and man! Fantasia Barrino's good! If i'm an American, i WOULD vote for her. Like fussy SImon said, she's different and she's sending out a certain vibe which i'm...pretty comfortable about..hee..

i hope i can get to publish this.

well let me start with today. or well maybe since it's past 12am, yestrday.

i woke up at about 11am and lazed around in bed till almost about 12pm and Tina got up first. Then me.

we had lunch, with aunty3, my granduncle2 n his wife and ah-heong. they were going to play MJ.

I took a quick shower and we headed to orchard. we watched NICHOLAS NICKLEBY. it was surprisingly good. i mean as a former Lit student, i thought it was good. i loved the language, hopefully i can buy the book and maybe get some quotes from there =) heheheh

there were twists, there was a bit of humour, a tinch of romance, good themes that ...........

===tina wants to say something....hold on....

"just thought that i would take this opportunity to say hello to all of Renee's friends. I can truly say that Ren is a great gal and even better cuzn. Although she is a lazy bum for not catching up nwith me in Melbhourne, so this year we are both to make the effort to see more of one another, alrighty. Anyway i am missing Dark Angel so i best be off. Adios amigos. Be good all!"

===yeap yeap...hahaha

stupid tina...hahah she's been laughing at me all this while... she cracks me up too...so well we laugh at each other...hahahhaha

just saw the aD for RYAN AND TRISTA'S WEDDING...hahah well would anyone in the right frame of mind put their life time happiness on the line and well look for his/her prospects in public...?i don't think so, and i don't think it'll last. hahha it's entertaining (hahah the ads are distracting me now...*grin*)but well such match-making reality series are just ...hmm hard to believe... =)

oh would anyone have bachelor or bachelorette parties?? =)

hmmmmmmm ANYYWAYYYYYYYY watched the movie and we went shopping... =) bought alot of things....hehehhehehe

finally done with shopping forrrrr.......jo and may.

i'm broke..ehehehe

after that had dinner with uncle aloy, my parents, tina etc.......and this gal called jean. didn't have any good impression of her. yeah (hahaha she annoyed tina too..WHOO! heheheh jus found that out) oh yeah as i was saying, ya so what if you've been in melbourne for 8 years, it doesn't make you australian. if you're malaysian, or singaporean for at least 14-18 years of your life since you were born, you can't possibly come back with a farking bloody fake accent, it's just impossible. i mean yeah you can talk to aussies like that, or for that matter if you're in the UK speak like the English, BUT when you're with locals (ie for my instance, singapoeans) you can't possibly speak funny. it's just.....wrong...hahah it makes you look stupid... =) yeah.... S-T-U-P-I-D...

and guess what? she was sooo rude to me. i was sitting next to her during dinner and she said "pass those buns to me will ya" WOW no please no thanks... i mean if you're my friend, i wouldn't mind, BUT hey u hardly know me and well at least make the effort to say please, practice some courtesy? hmm *grin* come to think of it it was the first sentence she spoke to me.

enough said about her...

let's see...that's wat happened today, erm..yesterday......

hahahha lazy to talk about yesterday....or the day before..argh..! hahah tired....

tina's like fast asleep

and i still can't get kenneth...if he's sleeping..i dun wanna wake him up...

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okok...on the 10th of FEB, we just walked around city hall. hahhaha

went to gelare after dinner, after sending PORPOR home, after waiting for them (aunty4,5,granduncle2 and his wife) to take a look at her place, after sending aunty5 home,after visiting aunty 5 and 3's houses, after sending aunty4 home, after dropping by her place as well....HAHHAHH....

at gelare, met eemin and max.... with their church friends... hahahah can't believe they were telling their church friends about me....they said, i used to be a gal who bangs balls...argghh...ruin me reputation!!!!!!!!! heheheh.... den eemin's mum came to pick him up so i said hi chatted with her.

den....hahahahha went home......

wait got a phone calllll

renzi kissed and swore @ 2:03:00 AM
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Tuesday, February 10, 2004


hmmm and i shall copy and paste what me mum emailed me...

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Disposable Relationships

In an age of fast foods, instant online services, lightning-speed telecommunications, and disposable "everything", a relationship is increasingly being seen as another throwaway item.

In an impatient society which demands instant gratification, couples are becoming less and less compelled to maintain and develop a romantic bond.


As long as the going is easy and rewarding for both parties, it’s all peachy. But as soon as discord, differences, and other difficulties begin straining the relationship, the temptation to dump and pick up another becomes dangerously strong.

Gone are the times of our parents and the generations before them when a romantic bond was like boiling a good pot of herbal soup – the longer and more often you brew it, the better tasting and more beneficial it becomes.

Relationships these days are more like instant soup mixes. We want all the taste but none of the effort. As soon as the sweet turns bitter, we spit the relationship out and consume another. We thus become ill-equipped to deal with adversity in a relationship. Our relationships become stunted, unable to mature and bear fruit.

A relationship can only be enriched and fortified through the weathering of hardship. Falling in love is effortless. Staying in love is infinitely harder. Couples who go through bad times together are more likely to stay together and benefit more from the relationship.

Throw out Hollywood notions of eternal love borne of a few days on a doomed ship. Love doesn’t "touch you one time and last for a lifetime". It needs hard work all the time.

Fruitful relationships don’t have to be preordained, they have to be maintained.

WRITTEN BY EUGENE LOH

-------------------------------seriously...i relaly dunno what to do sometimes...sigh...

1) dad gave me this book a week ago. the book's "It's not me...it's YOU (a modern girl's guideguide to Breaking up)" yeah..some of my friends think it's funny...but i don't. my dad's horrible someitmes...my mum as well...i mean if they wanna say something, jus fucking say it...i mean sigh...i'm really quite sick of them hinting at so many things, assuming that i know what is right for myself, and i should do the "right" thing. ARGGGHHHH....that's why i packed one of my bags on that day...was so pissed.

hmmm and he came back to me five minutes after he passed me the book and said "i gave you a book, why didn't you say thank you?"

...

commetns??? arggghhh!!!

2) my mum came over to me the other day and said "can you make it for dinner on sat?" and i told her i couldn't because i had a secondary school class gathering, which was arranged 2 mths back. then she went on by saying, "wht about tomorrow?" i had to go for the SAM dinner so i told her i couldn't make it, and guess what she said? " OHHHH (in a bitchy tone)meeting Kenneth isit?" arggghhhh

what's with them??? fuck! they say i shold be more "open" about kenneth and i did. i brought him back home, i introduced him properly to those two...and now they're giving me books and such fucking irritating treatment....

i really am tired...i know how danielle feels because her mum is like that to her, but why???

by giving me a book, showing me hints, and giving me such undeserving treatment speaks of quite a bit...

a)you don't trust me....you don't trust my judgement...

b)you don't give me any respect whatsoever to make any....decisions, mistakes etc...it's my life, not yours, if you made mistakes in your life, don't use mine to redeem yourself.

c)you don't give me any chance to do what i wanna do, you are paving the "way,path" for me...why should you. you dnt own me...

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just peeved..... very peeved.....

kenneth did say, "why don't you talk to them about it"..i'm tired...really tired....i've done it before, but well it backfired on me, why should i try again? maybe i'm lazy, maybe i've jus given up hope.

i've already given up so much hope on alot of things right now...partly because of them, i know i shouldn't but well they are afterall a big part of my life,and it's frustrating...sighhh

gt loads more to say but i just can't be bothered at this instant.... gotta go soon, to take photos for kenneth...

hmmm.....before i do so...here's something for everyone to see...hehehehehe my mouth!!!!! hahahahahahahhaha


renzi kissed and swore @ 1:10:00 PM
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i wrote this yesterday night...

well well it's almost 11pm

WHAT HAPPENED

woke up at about 10, wanted to go run but it was cloudy (hehe excuses excuses) so i went over to mum's room to laze around. got a msg from wee so we kinda had a conversation for a while.
went down to take a look at mama. talked to her for a while. she wanted sugar cane juice, so i planned my route properly. i planned to go to 1)parkway to withdraw money because me jus ran out of money...dun really intend to get money from mother. so yeah, had to get it from my pay, was unwilling, but hahaha i guess stubborn-ness(?) comes with a price. i withdrew about 300 and put it in my POSB a/c.
walked over to take a bus to 2)go to the airport to pick up tina, my close cousin from darwin. i ran out of time so i had to take a cab..sighhh
3)bought sugar cane juice for mama in the airport (it was surprisingly cheaper than marine parade road... *grumble*) and rushed to the arrival hall.
4)went home, and brought tina to mama. hmm tina also commented that mama lost weight. initially before she saw mama, she was thinking with mama already thin enough as it is, how could she lose even more weight... well my granny proved her wrong.
5)had lunch, instant noodles with tina...den we lazed around in my room and both of us dozed off....i dreamt alot...i heard a person doesn't sleep well if he/she dreams, if that's the case, i never get good sleep...
why do i even use numbers?? hahah had dinner soonafter, then i brought her to gelare in parkway. i met danielle there, spoke to her for a while, then we (tina and myself) jus walked around. had to buy anti-disinfecting spray for my dear jean because her sis has chicken pox..hahahah
hmmm yeap...well for tina's trip here, as long as i'm here, i'd probably offer to pay for everything (as host hehe) although we did say we would take turns to pay. AND i wouldn't take money from mother. i know i'm jus stubborn. but i won't.
AND well if she ever does make any noise about me not spending enough time at home this week, i will SO flare up. because i've already (i think) accomodated, and have decided not to go out that much.

was supposed to meet joel, shaun, alvin tan and a few others this week but i doubt i can make it. with tina here (yay! heheh haven't really met up with her in melbourne, irony irony!!) and three more relatives coming later, dun tink i can get out of my house so much.

karen exclaimed something like 'WHY YOU NOT SPENDING TIME WITH KENNETH???' almost incredulously, but i guess well with my granny's condition like that, and with my relatives here, it's almost hard if not impossible to spend time with anyone for this week...sighh..

but of course friday and sat i'd prob go out...friday, with karen...she is still keen on having a tatoo...she asked me what i want for me get-away gift...hmmm a tongue stud?? hahhahaha

hmmm den sat...prob going out for dinner witht he guys (ie kenneth, joel, derong and jon)...dont' really believe in V day...it's a hoax lah...it's more of a making-money scheme..heheh and i'd rather kenneth do something on any day other dan Vday...i feel like i'm not special on Vday..heheh

hmmm jus bought kenneth ice cream and drove to his house after we returned a VCD that i owed video Ezy like 2 weeks ago...oops...thank goodness the guy said it was alright...(although his gal colleague asked me to pay 5 bucks..heheh)

hope kenneth understands that it's not that i dun wanna spend time with him...sighh..

shucks..i miss him already...sighhh.....

hmmm it's almsto 11.15pm...need to drive to the airport to pick up 3 more of my relatives...

hmmm oh well...

sigh

FACT....try this..
no piece of ppr can be folded more than 7 times (a/c to snapple)

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:48:00 PM
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test?

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:47:00 PM
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Monday, February 09, 2004


check these photos outtt...hahaha *grin* finally i know how to put or well upload photos into my bloggggg...

this was taken waith kenneth on my first trip to malaysia, genting....(with the guys..)


and this was taken with joel on my second trip to m'sia, KL (with the guys as well)


ps:thanks jon!!! =) for teaching meeee....really appreciate it...

now...i shall learn how to upload a song...into blog...shall ask..hmmm jon first..hehehe

renzi kissed and swore @ 2:50:00 AM
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Sunday, February 08, 2004


i've to take a shower soon before i call dear...hmmm shall talk about....

WHAT HAPPENED

today:
after church was supposed to go to clarke quay with the guys for this flea market...followed by jan's birthday party but after i parked the car, i checked my phone and me mum msged me saying that my granny's asking for me and she's breathing hard...so i left clarke quay 5 minutes after i parked.

went home and ya talked or well listened to my granny talk.

was very irritated with my grand aunt (aunty5) because she kept saying things like, "which photo should we choose (for the funeral)?" and "hmm it's time already"....wow who made her God?? and i wanted to say something like "fuck you" or "how come u're so eager to find mama's photo...? i dun see you so eager to get married, old hag!!" hmm thats pretty mean but ya....she's bloody tactless lah....

hmmm den i took a nap because i was dead beat. woke up and found jean and family in my house. they were praying for mama...

den i had dinner with aunty monica, aunty five and mother. ray had really too much to eat, and wanted to puke. so i warned him that should he puke, he would get caned. and yes he did get cane, by me. too lazy to include much details, but i made him tell me why i caned him, jus to make sure why he knew he got caned. yeap yeap...

my brother said "mum...(meekly) i have something to tell you...but you'll get angry"

mum: say lah

me: (knowing what he'll say) yes say it and you'll get caned

bro: i want to vomit (rushes into the toilet and pukes)

everyone: (hears bro regurgitate)

bro: (walks out of the toilet and stares at the people seated at the dining area)

renee: come out now

bro: no way

renee: well you either come out or i'll go over and cane you

aunty monica: well if u say that you have to do it.

renee:yes i noe i'm not like SOME people. i don't spoil him unnecessarily...(turns to bro) come here now

bro: no!

renee: (walks over and grabs bro and nudges him to the toilet)

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i shall spare u the rest of the details...


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saturday:

well well...woke up at 10...lazed around in bed till 11 plus..den met aik ming to watch THE LAST SAMURAI...quite a good movie i must say... better than i expected (i guess because there was quite a bit of negative comments regardin the movie)

through out the movie...there was something evident...would you die for something that you believe in?

anyway after that went to meet derrick, gao.... (xh and keen came after a while....)
because derrick wanted to ask me about studyin in aussie...hahaha stupid dude didn't wanna meet me alone, kept bugging gao to join us...am i that scary...? sigh...hahahah well was pretty close to derrick for a while...and was quite astonished when someone mentioned to me on one occasion that he did fancy me a in J1...hahahahahah

yeap..after that, i had to meet jon leong (he was quite surprised tat no one told him that i came back), candice (KK's ex..hahaha finally met her...) and yvonne. we made our way to joel koh's house. his sis contacted a few of his friends to surprise him,. becauase he was going to melbourne to study soon. (actually leaving on the same day as me...same flight....supposed same flight i mean.....)hahhaha....but he wasn[t that surprised....he said that his parents are predictable...DARN!hahahha well met joel in JC also....he was the CF president....and was introduced to him by pers.... =) and very soon, i found out (through some subtle teasing) that he liked me... =p but it's over...heheh i'm glad...we can talk normally now... yay! heheheh

guess who was there too? garald? gerard? (can't really remember...) he didn't say hi so i didn't bother too. he is a year my senior, who fancied me...was kinda quite freaked out by him. well he irritated me... =p it seems i have a bad thing with Gs... another gerard/gerald from AA3 also liked me...freaky..he was one freaky guy...shall not say more...

yeap yeap...then i had to leave..thank goodness there was shaun (got another story about this dude...let's jus say...he suddenly dropped a bomb on me jus before i left and told me he used to like me..hahah), who took a cab.... so i hugged him, said my goodbyes and took a cab to queensway MRT...i should have jus taken a cab straight to clarke quay MRT.

(i kinda arranged to meet joel and shaun very soon before i go back but with mama's condition like that...dun tink i would be meeting much of anyone...sighhh)

yeap yeap...as i was saying... met my secondary school classmates and had a smashing time with them. i was late though..hahah oops...almost 1/2 an hour late...was so embarrassed...

oh brought them to this place called the SETTLER'S CAFE.... =) i shall put a link up to that cafe later...it's this cool cafe which sells like western food for an affordable reasonable rate and they house so many board games. you can eat as you play, play after or even before you eat. qutie a cosy place. and SAM's sponsor..hahahahha

after that, it was close to 11pm and we walked from clarke quay all the way to fullerton.. =) we settled down next to the spitting merlion..vomitting merlion(?) hehe den we jus chatted...wow quite a few ppl made it for this gathering...at least me efforts were not wasted... let's see... who went...

1)peijuan:she changed quite a bit...bloomed i may add... =)ahha alex was talking to her all night...we teased him about it..hahahah
2)huiling
3)doreen
4)khairul
5)chuan hoon
6)hafiz
7)alvin
8)chee keong
9)alex
10)ting ting
11)siao hui
12)lay hoon
14)cheng yong
15)hongda
16)jeffrey
17)hoo lun
18)grace
19)rong yang

hahah shal comment about them soon...

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friday:

went to work....during the break was kinda worked up because of wee (long story)

then... went out with aik ming and karen for a movie.... cheaper by the dozen..yes yes....three times already....but karen was quite down and she watned to watch a comedy....so yeap...wat are friends for anyway? =)

den karen had to go back for dinner so she left aik ming with me.

aik ming...hahaha talked to him quite a bit...told him about a couple of things...den asked him also....whether i've hurt him before...and yes i did...because i tink(if i remember correctly the chain of events) when he liked me, i told him that i wouldn't wanna get together with anyone and like 2 weeks later, i gt together with kenneth =p

had a great time with him....and well another dude that i love so much (as a fren of course...) and i relaly thank God for...

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thursday:
yes yes....long entry once again... well

went to meet me teachers....den charms...we finally watched the STUCK ON YOU show...disappointing...

den we went to meet danny for a nice KOPI...

den hahaha went to meet jan, the ambassadors for dinner at the SETTLER's CAFE....

finally met alvina after a long time...sigh..tat gal lost weight again...shall plump her up when we stay together...heheh if not she'll disappear....

shall stop for now...need to shower and talk to kenneth...

it's.......11.27pm

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"You're never truly single as long as you have yourself."



did a test.... =) thanks to byron's site... some cupid thingie...

results showed that...i am...

"Colorful, but unpicked. You are The Wild Rose.

Prone to bouts of cynicism, sarcasm, and thorns, you excite a certain kind of man. Hoping to gather you up, he flirts and winks and asks you out, ultimately professing his love. Then you make him bleed. Why? Because you're the rare, independent, self-sufficient kind of woman who does want love, but not from a weakling.

You don't seem to take yourself too seriously, and that's refreshing. You aren't uptight; you don't over-plan. Romance-wise, sex isn't a top priority--a true relationship would be preferable. For your age, you haven't had a lot of bonafide love experience, though, and this kind of gets to core of the issue. You're very selective.

The problem is them, not you, right? You have lofty standards that few measure up to. You're out there all right, but not to be picked up by just anyone."

comments? hahahha

i was talking to izzy on the phone when i read him the results...hahah and he laughed when i told him about the "you make him bleed" bit...hmmm oh well...

asked him a few questions today....1)wat does he tink of me...i mean i asked him to describe me... then...2)i asked him whether i've hurt him b4....will write more later..



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Thursday, February 05, 2004


Air Personality
You have an air personality. You laugh easily and
often at the simplest of things, which gives
you an easygoing nature. Parties are your
specialty and you can't get enough of that kind
of atmosphere. Hardly anyone has seen you upset
and you will often lock away feelings of rage
or sadness to appear happy and content. Your
love life consists of flings where the other
person was often driven away by your refusal to
acknowledge your true feelings. But don't fear!
When you find that true love, you'll be able to
open up to him/her and build a strong
relationship that will last a long time.


Elemental Personalities: Which is Yours?
brought to you by Quizilla

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got this site from by-the-ron-ron....... yawn....me is aries and B+ blood type...

For Girls

Personality: Although there are quite a few of you who are introverts, most of you are pretty quirky personalities. Sometimes your carelessness can lead you to embarrassing situations but you can cover that up with your enchanting charm.

comments: charm??? hahahhaha okayzz but yes me very careless...

Love: You tend to be fickle but this devilish side of yours might just be why guys are attracted to you. The relationships you enjoy are dates where there are no strings attached and men who admire you from far away. There will be only be one serious relationship you will experience and this man can tame you to a charming lady. One problem you might encounter will be your inadvertent humor. Make sure that your partner can differentiate that humor from your serious feelings.

comments: hahah i'm fickle...yes..... and serious r/s that can tame me?? hmmm okayzzz....

Life: You come across as a snob at times due to your stubborn nature but people tend to think it's cute. That's your allure. You don't like to adhere to society's norms and constantly search for the true meaning of happiness. Thanks to the special fate you were given, you will hardly encounter monetary problems. However, there will be times when you think you are not saving as much as you are making. That's due to your expensive spending habits, which you should try to curb.

comments: true true.....

Match

Good Match:O-types of Aries, Gemini, Libra, Sagittarius and Aquarius are great matches for you. You will love their passion for success and you are totally affixed with their attractiveness. The B-type Libras are also good matches for you because of their neat and tidy manners. Although you tend to get bored at times, it is up to you to rekindle the love.

Bad Match:The A-type Capricorns are stubborn, square, and too scrupulous for you. Numerous conflicts arise during this relationship. A-type Pisces are soul-comfort seekers and might be too sappy for you. They could easily get hurt by your capriciousness.

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hmmm i'm at charms' place now..can't use the internet at home....and EVERYONE's blaming me...sheesh..

was thinking about a couple of things and some part of me can't wait to go back to aus..i guess the only people that somehow make me wanna stay is...kenneth, jean, and karen... sighhh

hmmm went out with karen because she was down. went to the store. saw wee..hahah we barely spoke....

anyway went window shopping with me best fren..she left for home and i wondered around town because i didn't wanna go home. i checked the movie timings but there was no show for me to watch...either tat...it was RA..damnit!

hahaha finally went to meet kenneth for dinner. didn't eat because i had a buffet earlier. watched him eat. then i went to buy black chicken for my maid to cook something for my granny...she looks weak...and she looked like she lost weight again...sighh

well that's about it for me.... i guess...too lazy to talk about my parents...i really wanna move out when i graduate and come back to singapore (that is if i'm still together with kenneth)...

scepticsm is taking over..bleah! hate it.... i'm friggin sceptical about EVERYTHING......but oh well..that's me...and i shall jus not bother for now...

this is renee signing off at 1231 hrs...

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Wednesday, February 04, 2004


hmm.....haven't been online lately...nor have i been using the internet much....been pretty busy....

only had time to read byron's blog now....read three pages worth... =)

anywayy.... shall talk about meself....i mean wat hapened these few days...

yesterrdayyyy
ermm.....had to work....was quite disappointed that i didn't see wee... i mean i haven't seen him in ages! and when i message him or call him he doesn't reply or answer the phone respectively...is he avoiding me? if he is...it's sad because i love hanging out with him. and even joking or poking fun at him. he lets me =) hahaha sigh...and when i look at the schedule...he's OFF when i'm working....i'm not being sensitive i think because this has been going on for the past weeks.

after work.. was supposed to talk to rencong for a while but kenneth came in time, so rencong said some other time. hope he's alright... i messaged him today but he hasn't replied. dude...be strong~ (hope u're reading this too *hugz)

went for early dinner with kenneth and had not much of an appetite because ...??? i really dunno why..hahahah had a chawanmushi, a piece of tofu, 2 peices of tofu and yeap..tat was it...and it was my meal for the day.... (when i work, i dun normally eat....i'm so sick of SB food...oh well)

that was my day for the 4th

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3rd of feb (monday)
woke up because meiting came to BAI NIAN...and we chatted again.... (like the day before when i went to BAI NIAN)

it was hari raya haji...... i went for lunch with aunty lena (ku ku), ku por (my grand aunt) and family and mum and dad...well had lobster, crabs...misc stufff.... yummm but ray was pissing me off....and of all places i had to sit next to him...hmmm had to take food for him etc...bleah...i wanted to sit next to aunty lena...love to talk to my relatives...dunno why...hahahahh =) and i guess she's lonely....she had a divorce almost 1 year back i think. her daughter, cheryl-anne, went to russia. the latter's very intrigued by russia. she loves the language, she loves the culture. she's one of a kind. and her boyfriend's there too. (hahaha aunty lena asked me to not leak it out to ku por....) guess that gal really wants to escape, well that's how i feel.

well and her son, jonathan, is reaching puberty (in fact i can't really remember how old he is) hope he wouldn't be too rebellious...hahah i mean when a kid reaches that stage, the whole world would seem like it's agaisnt him/her.... but jon is growing to look like his dad...scary...

hahaha when aunty lena said that cheryl wants to do her degree in russia because she wants to master the language, i was all up for it. i even commented saying that well if u immerse urself in the country, you'd definitely master the language..hahah and she said "renee yang don't agree with her, or encourage her" but my argument was that well if that's wat she wants...i dun tink u can stop her. and she also did say that cheryl's stubborn *shrug* but i guess we as kids wouldn't know the heartache that parents would feel, esp if their kids don';t listen and well do wat they want. quite distracted now, it's cold lah....in kenneth's room tyhat's why...so hahahah will talk about that soon...

yeapp....after lunch, i borrowed the car and me fetched gao and we went to karen's place to BAI NIAN..hahahha =) i helped karen's mother to play MJ and won....sheesh...can't believe...that i only win money if i 1)play for others 2)play for fun

dum dum...

and after that i returned the car and went to look for kenneth

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sunday 2nd of feb
went to church.....after that drove to anne's place. jean and myself went to visit her because she had cramps. then we wacthed HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN 10 DAYS....ridiculous plot..(so hollywood...bo6y meets gal....yada yada....boy ends up with gal...)heheh but entertaining nonetheless. and prob only gals would be intrested in watching such shows....so byron that's how i would define a chic flick i guess..heheheh

after that movie, the rest of the older gals came ie pearl, wendy, amanda and carol...we entertained ourselves watching world idol (guy was there too.....he was like the 6th or 7t...but MAN...the norwainian guy is SOOOO good i tel you!!!), american idol3 and this other show featuring gwenneth paltrow (bahhh..my spelling sucks...) may wanna get that soundtrack too....

after that...i drove back because i had to return the car.... was lying on mum's bed when she confirmed with me my flight details...

mum: hey ur flight's on the 16th of feb...

me: ya...

mum: it's in the morning confirmed already.

me: morning?

mum: ya

me: morning???

mum:ya...

me: MORNING???!??! MotHERRRR!!!!!!!!! i told u like so many times i wanna go back at night...evening mother, evening mother!!!!!!!!1

mum: you got tell me meh??

me:YA!!!!! since like last year, when i was still in aus!!!!!!!! wa lao...charmaine's going to be pissed...thanks ah!

mum: wa laooo...who ask you to not come home early to ttalk to me and tell me??

me: ay....HELOO!!! i told you way before i came back. i emailed u about this too, when i was still in australia...

mum: (speechless)

yesss..my flight's on the 16th in the morning..sucks lah.....i was acting lijke a spoilt brat lah...but my mum said she would call thye agency up..shesh..

after that i went to sleep...was fuming...but yeah....had dinner and i really had to get out of the house. so i took 4 oranges and told mum that i needed the car to go BAI NIAN. she relented (because i guess she was also guilty...and well i had a valid reason to borrow the car) and i drove to LAO SHI's place. i caled her initially but she didn't pick up. tried my luck but hmmm she wasn't in... guess i ahve to do that soon...

then i called eemin but he said he wasn't going home so couldn't visit his mum

so i went to meiting's place to BAI NIAN.... then had a nice chat with her...she's still the same...hahahah she has been studying very hard since primary school... BTW she's my primary school best friend..hahah then she did very well for PSLE....so she went to anglican high... den to temasek JC and then NUS.....such a typical path of a person who does well in spore..hahahha =) she did mention she envies me..hahahha was quite puzzled when she said that...she loves me laid back nature...but heheh guess where i landed? aussie... hmmm i mean no offence to anyone studyun in auss..but guess i always thought i would end up in NUS, like loads of ppl i noe..

i'm quite glad i'm in aus..shall elaborate on that soon...

anyway meiting sayds she wants to be more like me....but guess she can't....beause she's always been so hardworking and bent on getting good grades only... *shrug* she said maybe when i come back, she would be a changed person...hope so

after visiting meiting i decided to visit mrs chng. equipped with a map, i managed to find her place. =) had a really nice chat with her, as usual, for almost 1.5 hours den i had to fetch karen lung, denise and kenneth to play MJ......

i would love to meet up with mrs chng again. i guess i can say she noes me best among all the teachers that i've met. she was my first lit teacher in sec 1 and i enjoyed her classes very much. after sec 4, i went with her, mrs loh and a group of students to cairnes... hehehe it was supposedly, a trip for students who did well in other aspects other than studies... =) (ie ECAs mainly) hahahahhahah guess wat? i was te only one from band and i was defintely proud of that... i mean chiyan and fanny were the band and drum majors respectively but welll guess i contributed more to the school and was more known =) when i go back, i can talk freely to my vice principal and principal..hehehe =) too bad mrs tan is not here anymore. i heard she transfered to MOE...(yuck).... and as for my VP, miss lim. everyone seems to hate her or detest her just because she's fierce, but in my opinion, well you have to be fierce at times, and pull your own weight when need be =) i jus realised i love fierce ppl... ehehheh =) or well opiniated ppl included.....eg....jean, karen, wee, miss lim. mrs chia, yu lao shi, aunty lena....

then played MJ

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sat 1st feb
erm....was supposed to work.but i chao genged..ehheheh went to see a doctor and got an MC....before jumping to any conclusions, i was genuinely a little sick...had a lot of phlegm .....and the doc told me to avoid extreme changes of temp (ie cold water, and cold temp) and ppl who smoke.... =p

anyway went to tampines and waited for jean. den we hanged out in tampines. can't remember much. we had lunch then went to parkway to walk around. we ended up swenson's (where jean was supposed to meet her friends ) we talked for a while, and both of us decided to sleep and we did! hahahha den her friend came along, so i went home . i didnt' wanna go home so early because i didn't wanna see dad.

in the mornin, i jus asked him whether he could give me money to see a doctor. den he kinda chided me asking me why i stll come home late at night since i noe im sick but i told him i had only phelgm, then he said "phelgm is sick!!" wa lao..win liaoz lorrr, nothing to say...then he threw me the money...fine..

anyway played MJ with tongli, khairul (and doreen..they're a tag team) and kenneth. i lost all my money...sheesh....hahahah

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can't remember wat happened on the 31st.....

oh ...jus realised, this yaer's the leap year..hahahh i really pty those whose birthdays fall on the 29th

anyway haven't read anyne's blog, but i read something about janelle in byron's blog..guess i'm one fo the guilty ones..hmmm no excuses i guess...was bsy..had to work...etc..and my connection sucs...always come to kenneth's place to use the internet...

hmm no more excuses...hmmm but well hahah thought i wiould get a break before i go back to aus...but guess i was wrong...

anywayyy..gtg now.....i'm freezng me ass offf....

shall talk about my dad being a dick soon.... he realy cheeses me off sometimes..

bleah!


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