Sunday, December 28, 2003
hmmmm.....wed.....can't remember wat happened...24th...christmas eve...had a nice lunch in the office....karen was the classic blur sotong and man she eats alot for a size..
(i'm jus giving a rough thing lah...not really in the mood)
went for service at nite..sang in the 'choir'...
den went to the service apt with the gals...
next day...had lunch, as usual, with my family...met honfei..lolo...missed them so much...their teasings....
went to meet humpa, charms and CH....dun really miss their teasings...
after tt met persis....she came to stay over...
oh watched mona lisa smile...
den yesterday.....26th....spent some time with kenneth...den had caroling...
den watched the same show again...
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today.....went out with eemin after sending mama to the doc's again...no cooments abt mama for now...
den...met rena and neil for a movie..
after tat met siao ling, zhenhong, huiling, doreen, michelle(mao's gf), mao cheng, hongda, chee keong, alvin, alex, eemin for dinner.....
they came over for a gambling session..
lost ALOT of moneyyy...brokeeee...
well u win some u lose some.....won everyone's money the other time when i played mj with karen lung, kelvin and kenneht..
hmmm sometimes i wish i can be a more selfish gf..hahahah ironic coming from me...
sigh
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Tuesday, December 23, 2003
anywayy time to lament...shall talk about the rest of ryan's blog soon...
hmmmm OHHH last comment first...hahah well gals will be gals and guys will be guys...it would be virtually impossible to understand guys (from a girl's pt of view) and vice versa...hahah i remember kenneth making a comment like "dun understand why gals are so (yada yada)..." and i'm sure i've heard a few gals mention their frustrations as well but hmm that's why we all should read this book "why men lie and women...." shit...can't remember the title...but i'm going to buy it... =) alvina recommended this book..shall get it...and bring it over to aus =)
hmm yeah as i was saying..i'm at home. my maid woke me up at 6am (i'm supposed to wake up at 7 every morning) but yeah..she woke me up at 6am because my granny asked her to wake me up.
i went down to my granny's room, then she said either my dad or myself (the rest of my family's still in thailand) have to stay at home because she's very SUN FU (xing1 ku3 in cantonese). she continued by saying, if in the event that both of us have to go to work, i have to pass my hp number to my maid, in case "anything happens". in my head, i was panicking already. then she said, she would prefer me to stay at home in case she had "last words to say"....in my head i was thinking "SHit!! oh no!" but at that pt of time my dad was still sleeping, so i jus nodded n went back to sleep. at 7 when my dad woke up, i told him what my granny said. then he said he HAD to go back to the office and i said i had a lot of work to do (because before i left yesterday my superior gave me a mountain load of work to do...AND i had to handover everything to karen, teach her how to do things before i leave tomorrow!) in the office, then my dad made this comment, "if i were you, i would stay lor. mama doesn't say such things all the time you noe" wow...guilt trip...so i had to stay. i msg-ed gao becoz i couldn't meet him for breakfast, and msged karen... she kind of made things worse for me because at the back of my head i was worryin sick for my granz.
then at about 8 plus, i went down to my granny's room again, and there she was eating like a healthy person. i asked her whether she wanted to go see a doctor, and she retorted back saying "you want me to shit all the way to the doctor's??" wah laoo..it's diahrrea (bahh dunno how to spell) lor..not like it's something that u can't control..i mean u can control your stomach a little at least... and she's not like going every 10 minutes. it takes only 10 minutes to to doctor's. then she said she wanted the doctor to come. guess she takes for granted that she can ask dr wong to come anytime he wants. then my maid said that she's okay (that was what my granz told my maid) only thing is she misses my brother and is damn worried for my brother (come on lor!!! he's having fun in thailand with the rest of my family) sigh....(dun wanna comment about my granny and her constant worrying) and my maid said that my granny claims that she's alright..only thing is she is SUN FU (in agony) because she is worrying for my brother, so why the hell am i wasting my time here when she's healthy...!??! yes i noe i have to be filial but she's healthy now only for the occasional goin to the toilet. and she made another of my grandaunt stay over at my place because she claims there is blood in her shit. she asked my grandaunt and maid to see her shit but there was no blood. mann...
think i have to do OT today lor...because of this. yes i sound like a dick and BU XIAO ZI (unfilial child) but isn't this a case of calling wolf, i'm not amused. in fact, i was quite irritated. she also told my maid that she wanted me to take care of her. but how to?? i'm in aussie...and i guess, she would prefer my brother to me lor, since i can't carry on the family name. sorry if i sound sore here but maybe i am. kenneth says i'm repressed, maybe i am. for now, i'm not blaming anyone, not even God anymore. I've better things to do.
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bahhh..my comments can't be seen yet...i'll type it all o again then...but this is jus wat i tink *wink* (deja vu) --- please refer to to the previous entry..
alamak..jus realised i startde cutting n pasting only from part of 4 onwards...well shall do these few first then....
5)i noe of ALOT of ppl who complain about their sizes....me included (but i only do this sometimes....heheh) some gals go all out and exercise, some jus well continue their daily routines and still complain, well ppl wil always be like that...some will do something about it some won't...heheh
but i noe more often than not u're tlakin about gals here..yeah....oh well..in this world that we live in, i guess looks are more impt to gals, or women , ESP when they go out to work in the doggie dog workin world.
6) HEY HYE HEY......generalisation here! =) guys also do that u noe =) well why don't ya say "sometimes(be it guys or girls) jus tend to 'forget' that guys have feelings too"....hey more often than not i kinda feel that guys also forget that gals are not always guys all the time.....AND i'm not a feminist so well..hehe i always believe there is and WILL not be any equality.... =) *shrug* sad fact of the world... shall talk about that sme other time.......
but yeap..tat was kind of a generalisation....
7) hahaha hey! i dun expect kenne to forgive me so easlity...after what i've told him....and...well we kinda will talk about it within a day....he'll force me lah..heheh or vice versa but we get it off out chest and yeah....things jus becomes normal after that......
and i noe a few gals who are really magnanemous(bahhh dunno how to spell) but it's true.... i guess gals tend to be more petty in this aspect....and it really depends on both individuals int he couple lor to make things kind of balanced.
8)THAT IS SOOOO NOT TRUE!!!! i noe of tons of gals who take months and even years to get over their respective exes.... kenneth would like to call them suckers but yeahh...that is an overgeneralistion i would like to say. =) and well i'm one of them "suckers"
9)hahahahhahahhahah times have changed i guess...look at my mum. she confidently told my granny eons ago that she intended to get a maid to do the housework !! =p
can't imagine kenneth and myself living under the same roof, think the place will be a pig sty!!!
10) HAHAHAH i can't deny that... =) guess u can call them vulnerable... =) heheh or "SUCKERS" hahahhahah
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hmm it's like 10.05am and i'm at home when i'm supposed to be working...shall lament on this later...
anyway ryan said some stuff on his blog that's....i would say intersting?? shall cut and paste:
" isn't feeling well... she does a certain thing for him but, for some reason, he doesn't want to eat/drink/accept what has been done for him. The MOST COMMON reaction to this is that the girl gets pissed off or something. But hey, (a) He's SICK for goodness sake! (b)Maybe he just doesn't feel like it at that point of time? (c)You can't just DO something and EXPECT your partner to ACCEPT it regardless! You do something out of care and goodwill without expecting anything in return!
5. They complain they are "fat" but never does anything about it.. I mean like, hey... if you THINK you are fat or you're really not happy about your size or something, go DO something about it! Most people that i know just sit and complain.
6. Sometimes (be it to guys or girls) just tend to 'forget' that guys have feelings too!
7. When the guy breaks a promise, THAT's IT! It's the end of your story... But when the girl breaks a promise, she is normally forgiven very easily.
8. When going through a break up, a girl gets over it rather quickly. For a guy, it's like a neverending torture...
9. Girls nowadays do a LOT less housework than before. Nowadays, it seems like the guys are more 'housewife' like. I'm not saying that this is bad or good but hey, you just have to have a balance in life... You can't be only concentrating on one thing and neglect certain aspects of life. You can be hardworking in studies, you can be ambitious but please don't forget you have got things like sports and house chores to be 'active' in as well...
10. A girl is very weak at heart, especially when it comes to long distance relationships.. : ) "
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Monday, December 22, 2003
hmm feeling giddy today...not too sure why....
=p
anywayyyy shitt...lost my thread of thought....
waiting for karen to finish her work...just batched out letters again...got about 400++ names to check...arghh...
but glad it's goin to be over... i can't really say i realy regret joining Std Chartered...i mean well at least i did learn lots on excel.... =) hehe thanks once again karen (doubt she will read this anyway)
hmmm dunno wat i'll be doing these few days....on christmas eve service, the gals are going to a service apts...and the guys, another service apt...thanks to amanda and jon respectively. their aunt's bosses have a few service apts...and they've gone back to their own countries if i'm not wrong so...yeap...we've got them apts.... but i wanna spend time with kenneth. maybe i'll ask him whether he's free for a while before we head to the separate apts... =p hahah the gals (wendy, amanda and chelle) jokingly said if i go over, i can't come back into the gals apt...hahah so can't jinx... =)
i miss mambo...up till now i haven't been to mambo....shall ask gao n gang... =) but hmmm did kinda dua him a couple of times...shittt....shall arrange and keep to my promise...anyway no more work...so can't use work as an excuse...
hahaha marcus, my superior seems to be panicking..i really pity him...i mean picking up from what hwee min has done... hwee min seemed to have made a couple of mistakes, in turn...well i too made a couple because of her instructions...
oh well....
i noe it's still too early...but my 21st is coming....day of doommmm.......i dun like my bd but it would be nice to hve kenn celebrate with me...but he'll be like in school...bahhh...
i wanna go a really really nice place to chill ....dun need to talk...jus wanna reflect on stuff.... i mean not that i dun reflect on anything now...but really sit down and think about the 21 years that i've been on this earth...sounds strange to say this....
hmm
christmas is in 3 days...panicking....no xmas presents bought yet....no time..argh...now i ahve to rush with the stupid kiasu spore crowd...
bahh.....
okok...shall ask karen whether she's free for lunch...LATERZZZ... (time:12.51pm)
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hmmm....let's see..haven't updated my blog in millions of years...just sneezed..bahhh...hate this feeling...i mean i've been kinda sick for the past few days..it's the office i tell u..heehe i feel alright outside of the office... =)
hmm ok...wed went out with humpa, charms, her bf and kenn... =) kenn was ah-mad for that day..thanks dear *nuakz* erm..*muakz*
well had loads of food...the nasi lemak was okayz lah..wasn't tt fantastic...ermm....had sotong, erm...crayfish and stingray... yumm...den charms introduced some dessert, shared one portion with kenneth... well sent them home after that... then went to kenn's house for a while...
thurs....aiks...shit...i really can't remember...tink i went out with kenneth???
fri...played mahjong with kenneth, karen lung and kelvin..won everyone...ahhaha twenty bucks...kenneth lost the most?? but ahha well all the money went to him in the end...anway his money is me money... =) kind of lah... hahhaah
argh rushin thru this because i may have to go to the other branch so...yeah...
sat...slacked the whole day at kenneth's place....before work he prepared grilled mushrooms...yummy...and had instant noodles...thanks again dear...
waiitt..think i went out with my ex sec school classmates on thurs =) yeapp..hahah had a great time...almost forgot how they were like...they're still the same...well there were only the 7 of us but i enjoyed my time there thoroughly...=) huilign and alvin were complaining tt i dun reply their snail mails...i shall make en effort the next time i get bak to aussie...then the group assigned me to haha arrange for another class gathertin....well kinda did that...huiling's callin up the rest...
hmmm sunday.... went to church...den to danny's house....drove in the rain...man...it has been raining everyday..sianzzz...
had popiah and CHU KUEI (?) sorry dunno how to speellll....hmmm yeapp...exchanged gifts with them SAM dudes...den went off back to church because i promised wendy that i would carol with the rest...hahahah yeap..went to KA to sing....drove my car down so i fetched like 7 gals there....mann..i felt like a school bus driver..hahahha... =) hahha
let's see....yeap..had a great time in KA...was still teasing baby buttocks...hmmm will miss doin that when i get back...
and michelle was teasing me.... hehehe tht stupid gal kept saying"YOZ YOZ SISTA YANGZ" hahah because my icq was apparantly on in kenneth's computer...so when she used it, i assume it's neil who messaged me....so yeah..she kept disturbin me with that...and haha she whispered so loudly that maybe she would really call me sista next time... (hmm chelle's kenneth's sis)0.....
ANNYYYWAYYYY went to meet aik mng about 9 plus for cheesecake at the cheesecake cafe...(cheesy name..HAHAHAHHA no pun intended)....because appparently there was a chio bu there...waste of time.... hahah but the waiter was very friendly to me...and to aik ming..hahahah nice a friendly dude...good service =)
hmmm yeap yeap...gtg now...time to wanted to say slack..but my superior came over...got stuff to do liaozz...LATERS...
the time is...........9.30 on a cloudy (why am i not surprised) monday morning (3 more days to xmas)
ps:going for a manicure today with geok pei aka karen aka bimbo aka my BESTIEEEEEEE =)))
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Wednesday, December 17, 2003
doing the final bits of what i'm supposed to do..hehe yawn....going to meet bryan and charms and jason..and kenneth..haha kenneth offered to drive so..hehe got an ah-madd... *hugz* thanks sweetiee...
anyway finally...it's like 6.30..going off now...laters!!!
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the day before yesterday watched erm....INFERNAL AFFAIRS 3 with wee..hahaha... =)))
anyway yeah...was kinda peeved at kenneth...when am i not anyway? hahha but told him everything already..yesterday..more or less i guess...
hmmm arranging with bryan and charms to meet today...wonder can make it not...hehe charms bringing erm..jason..
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17th December (morning):
it's the 17th of decemver...so fast...time just passes jus like that...argh! i dun wanna go back!!!
anyway waiitin for karen and just thought i'd write a little haven't been able to use the internet...it feels funny but hmm everytime i come home i'm so tired alkready..
hmmm yesterday in the train the train doorr didn't open immediately at city hall. i could hear a lot of people letting out at least a "shit" in frustration...u miss train den wait for the next one lah..why fret over such minor things...like missing a train is a matter of life and ddeath..
stark contrast to what i saw today..when i was on my way today to work, i was pleasantly surprised that this man in his early twenties raise his hand to kinda direct or let another woman, go into the train first...i mean u sledom see that in spore...ppl jus normally rush in....that's a first....it's really refreshina dn i'm very impressed...
what did i do yesterda?
was supposed to watch duran duran...but...well hahaha ended up having a meal at the esplanade with dear and well we watched LOVE ACTUALLY..yes yes the second time i watched it..i wanna buy the soundtrack..speaking of soundtracks...i wanna buy...erm...shit can't remember...i noe romeo and juliet soundtrack...and erm......finding nemo... =)
cant remember the rest of the soundtracks that i wanna buy...
as i was saying..hmmm LOVE ACTUALLY..hahah hug grant can shake man!! but i jus read in the newspapers where hugh grant swears off dancing for life..sigh.,...not more nice ass to seee....... i actually tot he was quite impressive... =)) *droll))
christmas is round the cornet....actually like 1 weeks time...haven't done no shopping..arghh!! helppp!!!
oh karen's here!
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feeling of the day...BORINGGGGGGGGG
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Monday, December 15, 2003
15th december (10 days to christmas i'm excited!!!!! ) @ 3.52pm:
wow duran duran!!!! =) christmas concert!!! i want both!!! hahaha helping chris to call up people to ask whether they want free tickets...u see mastercard has given a couple of tickets both for the duran2 and some christmas concert with dick lee and hahaha yeah....it's free!! i want both!! hope it's too rush for other people and no one wants the free tickets and i hope no idiot takes any of the tickets and not go...hate such ppl...sniffles....this lady called pearl took the last pair of tickets for the dick lee concert...shall try to ask kenneth whether he wants to go...if so i'll buy them....hmmm maybe as a christmas gift...it's 122 bucks each lorrr... so is the duran duran one...
glad things are good for gao.....not too sure about karen. something new seems to always crop up...hmmm and as for someone else....things seem to be looking not that good for her and her bf...hmmm shall pray for her...and her bf.... think they look good together =) but then again...i hate being cynical here BUT......ppl used to say dom and myself look good together....hey! we're not together anymore...hahahha hope nothing of that sort happens to me and kenneth because a couple of ppl have mentioned that we look good together..... can't see it but guess i'm involved that's why...hope history doesn't repeat itself..it's scary when i does.....
i hate it when history repeats itself in a more negative nature.... well it would make me think, inevitably, that where's hope in this world. then again...there is only one hope...and that's in God =) hmm i really need to get back to Him....feel so lost w/o Him...sigh....
anyway time to bug weiguang for the cmputer...argh...my eyes hurt!!!
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HAHHAHAHA it's almost time to go home and guess what...?? i've got a pair of tickets for DURAN DURAn..hehehe yay!!!! it's almost 6 and renee ehre g=signing off
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waaaa chris has three tickets for the gala premiere of LORD OF THE RINGS bahhh..i also want...jus now i was on the phone and i kinda heard him ask me whether i wanted to watch LOTR today when he realised i was on the phone, he walked away...den when i approached him again and asked him what he said...he said nothing...bahhhh...i also wanttttt *whineee**
shall save this first...den i'll type out one more entry that i wrote a while ago...
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hmmm yeah..as i was saying....hmm dun wanna say liaoz......tink kenneth knew i wasn't too happy about it...if he doesn't..well after readng tis he would noe..
anyway spent some time with him after we broke camp...
on sunday....because kenneth lost his voice and was supposed to sing in church, i woke up earlier..heheh (because i always wake up slightly later den reach church 5-10 minutes into worship? bad habit...) to make honey water for him, cold honey water some more..because stupid boy preferes cold stuff...so yeah..made it for him den....when i passed it to him, he jus said "dun wan"...winz liaozzz...didn't message him for half of the day....tink he knew he snapped at me so he apologised...
waaaa liaozzz...so hard being a gf sometimes.... he complains some more that i nevere show my concern, never actually show my love for him...but i consider these little acts as well lor....fine...since u dun like, dun appreciate...done.. =P kenneth elias....if u want next time...beg me okay *wink*
heheh..
anywayyyzzz...it's almost 515pm....quite a slack day...considerin last week....
hmm ohh we continued with camp.....and mannn...did badly for my group's item...worst evere......but well can't say much lah...sighh....we didn't prepare much and haha got a couple of seccies....lower sec students....
derong amazed me...he actually can shake!! hahahah he shook the house yesterday with his preformance....heheh =) and he kinda has a fan club... =)) that's how i feel...hahah to tink he used to like me for...er...5 yearS? but funny how he started liking me...jus becuse i was VERY nice to him because i was his angel once when we were playing the angel and mortal game... =)
anyyywayyy was very down yesterday...shall explain why soon....
hmmm shall save this first...
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my colleague has stuff for me to do...but he's busy.....so i still have a little tme...
hmmm yeap..where was i...oh had camp...but they broke camp becoz a lot of ppl were falling sick....so as a precautionary measure, the pastor asked the leaders to break camp..quite disappointing..because the kids in my room are so nice...i wanted to get to know thme..... well leona is SOOOOOO cute...she's sec 1 this year and i just adore her! and so is erm...who's that..............caster...he's in ac(i) and in sec 1...i call him baby buttocks..heheh =) because his cheeks are so soft and smooth, like baby buttocks... hehehhe
anyway it's 11.30 not 11...hmmm
wat else....played games...amazed clarrise can like stand firm on the ground while gals tried to tackle her....5 gals tried to tackle her at the SAME time but we all fell... =PPP amazing...
clarisse said something tht made me roll my eyes...or erm...well make a funny face during sharing session...didn't noe danielle noticed..hahah but oh well told her the reason and she started laughing.. =)
enjoyed only one day of camp...too bad but oh well =))
spent like 20 bucks to come to camp....was in woodlands...and haha made conversation witht he taxi driver...nice dude..heheh i mean i remember byron saying once, (something to this extent) why not make life more itneresting...if u go from place to place, mite as well talk and learn something from someone else...hehe
so i did...heheh he was complaining most of the time...but yeah....found out quite a bit... =)))
hmm yeah...asked the taxi driver to stop for a while while i ran into NTUC (was raining) to buy haigan daz(dunno how to spell) ice cream for dear.bought two tubs...wa liaozz..super ex...22 bucks...den made my way to camp....guess what..? he didn't eat it at all...he "didn't like the flavours"....we gave it to his sis ....but yeah....bummer lah...next time dun buy for him already...i mean i noe
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i dun like pms, but it jus can't be stopped. some gals seem to be cheerful all the time, it's amazing...noe of one...hahaha charmaine from ac....she's crazy... =) i mean good crazy, friendly crazy, always laughin crazy... =))
hmmm thank goodness i didn't write any entry yesterday if not it would be a depressing one... hmm jus one of those days i guess....esp when my period's gonna come, hate it hate it!!!
hmm had like a camp on saturday was supposed to stay over on satruday but they broke camp... =((( oooo time to go...got stuff to do...it's monday 15/12.....er....11am??
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Saturday, December 13, 2003
you know it's christmas is spore when...
1) you hear carols being played when you're in the toilet letting out something, and it helps!
2) you find people young and old shoving you little gadgets tat light up and blink, in orchard road expecting you to buy those things for a "very reasonable price"
3) orchard road gets crowded even on a weekday
4) people are taking photos of "snow" which is foam by the way...
5) you see queues and queues of people lining up for everything: ranging from toilets to gift wrapping service...
6) you see decorations from last year being put up in especially those low budget shpping centres...
7) there's a jam in orchard road...people taking photos mar...
8) you see sales assistants wearing santa hats, looking far from HO-ppy when serving customers
9) it keeps rainign instead of snowing...
10) you see many people going into low budget shops and buying really BIG gifts....
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let's see....today...let me finish up yesterday's entry.......
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hahah i need to get more refills for this bk...aik ming bought me this =) i wanna update my blog now! i't slike 11am and i'm, i was writing the thank God list on and off, well for these people, i was quite close or well some very close to them. hahha anyway i thank God that he placed these people in my life...got more will do that soon...
Dear Karen, thanks once again for looking out for job opportunities for your best friend. i really appreciate it and more imptly i appreciate you! love you sooo much! and thank God for ya *muakzzz****
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same day (11/12) @ 4.30pm:
wa! had a stressful period jus not... i was in charge of couriers and i kind of screwed up stuff...argh!!! hahah anyway getting sleepy...i miss SB!!!! *whine* and getting groggy....anyway i miss kenneth..hehe he's having camp now. hope he's having fun....
dun have my hp with me right now and can't remember almost everyone's numbers so ..agh! jus dozed off and jerked up, hope no one saw me.....heheheh so i called wee....hope i got thr rite number....heard josh is coming over....
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then i had loads of stuff to do...so i stopped writing... =))
hmmm...
yeap... that was that....den dad picked me up because it was rainign cats and dogs...and didn't have my phone to like contact ANYONE... =p karen wanted to go home i know...so didn't bother her...wee .... hmm he was super fickle...so i said forget it..den called my dad and hahah asked him to pick me...
fecthed my mum as well.. =)
wa...came home with like 15 missed calls....some calls were from bryan....then gao (but he was with val so didn't wanna like disturb him) mother...and dear....and chris...hahah yeapppp
hmmm tat's it for yesterday...didn't get to talk to kenneth....yesterday AND today...
bleh
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12TH DECEMBER: 10am:
hahah had quite a bit to do after i wrote the "heard josh is coming over" sentence. anyway i'm like super sian now. back @ selegie complez...another std chartered branch....sigh...it's so cluttered and i just hate it! hmm my superiors are all talking s i 've got time in my hands for a while.....
let me lay down what i have next week...
-mon : out with parents i tink..haven't confirmed anything yet...but they will make time for me...hehehe i need a camera...
-tues : 7.30 with alvin...dinner
-wed : prolly meet drew for dinner...
- thurs: meet 4c for dinner
- friday: MJ after work... =)))
- sat: work den dom's party...
- sunday: steamboat...have to ask danny whether he can lend us his place...
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(con'd...) 1.40pm:
anyyywayyy i'm back here after lunch. met a nice gal who was doing a survey..she was very funny...the chinese way.... =) hahah dunno how to explain but she's a nice gal. she was very surprised that i dun use any facial products for my ...erm..yeah face.... and well i haven't been using facial products since i was young. the most i use is baby wipes...which work!! go try it!!
and bought a pair of shoes for eight bucks after lunch. had the lousiest fish meat soup....
yeah...as i was saying...stupid shoes gave way on me....second time since i'm back.. =( guess haven't been weating them for long.... esp the today's pair...sniffles...like that one lehhh......very XIM TIA>.....this pair was given to me by my classmates from 4c...in sec 3...so...erm..it's 3c... =) hahah yeahh.....very nice gift...loved those shoes...sniffles...
i tink i will still keep thme because it has sentimental value..i dun throw away my shoes unless necessary....even my adidas shoes in aussie...dun wanna throw them away...even though they are sooo holeyy...
the shoes that i bought are quite loose shall go buy extra soles to make it less loose.
my other pair that gave way to me is an mphosis pair...love that one SOOOO much...sigh...too bad it had to give way..... =(((
hmmm..two ppl made this comment saying i dun look like my age...good good..at least i still look young..thought melbourne has made me age....alott... heheh from all the stayin up and well dunno doin what man...hehehe bad for health....... one of them, wilson said i look like i was from sec school or jc..the other,, isabelle said i was from a JC...yay! i haven't aged! hahahha stupid bimbo talk...oh...LATERZ!!!
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yeap...tat was that.....today...after work was in such a bad mood, when i met wee, i was fucking and fucking... no literally of couse! was just like verbally saying rEALLY nice things about people... =p
hahah well really rough day...
shall talk about it tomorro...need to sleep now...yawnnnnn...got to go for camp...
tomorrow that is....
saw ren ren today =) he should cut his hair....speaking of cutting hair...wee should cut his hair too...guys with too long hair look funny...normally..gernally speaking..y es yes...i generalise...but it's true.....clean cut is the best... kenneth FINALLY got himself a nice hair cut...yay!!!
i have tot abt it...shall end all my entries with something..and the person whom i am addressingto may not know my address...but it doesn't matter..i dun really care...this is my friggin blog..i dun give an f to whoever who read s this...
time to OR OR>....yawn
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Thursday, December 11, 2003
wrote this today hahah when i was working...
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it's the 11th of december, time: 09++hrs. i've nothing to do now and hahah guess i'm waitin for couriers because i'm just in charge of couriers, calling up singapore post instructing them to do whatever i say. a very lac job for the time-being. should i ask my superior for the day, ivy to turn on the computer?? hahah...bored to tears...anyway feeling so much better from last night...because of sleep but had very little to start off with. slept at about 4+ because was talkin to kenneth after i wrote the angry blog entry. well that entry was really in a fit of anger i guess....jus one of those days i guess.......
damn drained...probably from yesterday.... =) but oh welll got a slack task today for now...should i be crazy and ask for more work??? should i buy food...? HUNGRYYY........i bought orange juice for bf but hmm maybe shouldn't have done that......because of the acidic nature.......HUNGRY nowww..! maybe shall get frothy milo from the machine...yummmmmmmm
ok ok...time to stop writing for now and stone..BWAHAHAHHA
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(con'nuation) People i thank God for...
--> eemin...or should i call him jon ong...too used to calling him eemin liaoz...well i know this one's for keeps =) he's a super loyal friend...i noe htat because we've been friends since God knows when...one of my longest friends who know me quite a bit =)
--> jean: the temperamental gal who loves those who are clostest to her to bits...very frank and someone who doesn't hold back. love such people....i mean they hurt the people around them with their brutal honesty but i guess well they are frank and not hypocritical...must learn to be like them...but yeah i thank God for her constant prayers for me and for her constant concern over me...man! it's so ironic becase i'm like what, 2 years her senior...and i seem to behave like a kid when compared to her.... she's a great childhood friend, neighbour and companion.....not to mention sis-in-christ...love her to bits...
-->rencong: aka ren ren!! hehehhe well though i've only met him recently, i'm really glad we both became friends and well somehow, closer friends =) often talk to him online because i always bug him to come online...and well glad he treats me like a good friend tooo, and i'm thankful that he's patient enought to listen to me talk cock and listen to my crap.....and troubles sometimes!
-->persis: my closest cousin whom i've grown up with...very whiney but loves God alot...a great shining light and well example for me to follow =) i really love her so much and well she's been there when i needed her and i want to do the same as well..
--> honfei: another one of my cousins who is very Godly....and is such a blessing to those around him. he never gets angry and he's like a graet advisor on things to me. very concerned about me and a great brother to me!
--> alvin tan.....one of my, as i quote from gao, "million and one" kors from GM =) very strong dude from the outside and well glad to see his other side...he did show it to me and well a really sensitive dude....stubborn too.... thank God that he still talks to me online...and makes the effort to meet up with me... =)
-->izzy: hahahahha loads to say about him, my ex manager from starbucks...izzy the drunkard...he started me off drinkign so much last year....., when i was still bumming...used to drink a lot with him...and well would always make time for me.... =) too bad he always lets his emotions get the better of him...BUTT anyywyayyyyyy hopefully a friend to keep for life because he's interesting and very diff from all the guys i've met.........probably ebcause he's from the UK.....he always reminds me that life is too short, and we should live life to the fullest.... =) great friend to be with..!
--> wee: met him in SB...first impression was that he looked like my cousin...honfei's brother....well became closer after a while and heheh always kena teased....ppl around us put us together..and all say he likes me...no comments. BUT well i know for ausre he's a friend to keep and he would probably stand by me if i do have any problems.hahaha always would remember the time when i made him puke so much...ehhe
--> melvin: er hahah complicated history we've got...hehe and well come to think of it, so unexpected...hmmm anyway he's a ded who is super hardworking and would definitely make a good friend, unless his work stands in his way. but i feel that he's a special fren to me, probably of what happened to the both of us...and well he makes sacrifices, mainly monetary, for me...and calls me in aus... =) nice dude...think he does that for the ppl stayin in aussie too..whatever it is...he is a sweet dude...whoever gets him is one lucky gal! =)
--> dominic...need i say anything? my ex..hahahahha i mean he's a dude who will definitely be there for me, as a fren, and a very sincere person. only thing is he is SUPER politically correct....takes after his dad...tsk...and well glad to say i'm over him and well happy that he's with sharon...but hmm not too close to sharon so...er no comments...
sleepyy..shall finish up the entry tomorrow.....need to pack somem0re..hahahaha
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waaa laoooooo simin has music in her blogg...jealous...hahah went to rena's blog and man...i went on to read other people's blogs..interesting...should read zhi's one...what's humji??
hmmm anywayyy had a looong day at work...fuck hate office jobs..hahah i noe i noe i keep complaining..okok..shall stop complaing...for today..bwahahha
yesterday was suppsoed to go to mambo but because stupid ntu had their bash , i decided not to PAY to get in..yes yes danny called me cheap skate...HMPT~ got a problem with that?? hahahah
hmmm i miss aus...but i dun wanna go back..tink i'll flood the airport the next time i go back again..*gulp* argghhh!!!
okok...time to take a quick shower...it's 10.22pm on the 11th of december
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this was written jus minutes ago.......it's 3 in the morning and erm....the 11th of december 2003...
"hmmm just took a shower and i'm sitting at my dressing table writing this entry..it's very dim because my brother would make noise if i do turn on the light. just got home from dar's place man! got shit from my granny when i got back.
betcha i'm going to be so screwed by dad tomorrow. sigh when my grans was reprimanding me jus now, i heard my dad slide open his door to listen to the "conversation". sigh...my grans said that she waited up for me till she was giddy. i mean i feel she worries unecessarily. she has my interests at heart i know that but well come on! i think spore is quite safe and not say i'm like a really small kid. she even does that to my parents. when they come home late at like 1am after karaoke, she would complain to me worrying that something would happen to them.
in this aspect i really miss aussie. oh!
and my grans also said that my brother was waitin for me, but that's just bullocks! he just got up to pee and he's such a baby! needin someone to sleep with him. he's friggin 7 lor! and my grans complained saying that she climbed up to see how he was. man! he's not going to fall off or die up there being by himself. fucking sheltaring him and spoiling him, not that he's not spoilt already. and it's so timely when my brother sees my grans and said something. my granny conveniently interpreted what he said as "where's sis? I WANT SIS" sheesh....bloody hell, it's just a case of my grans listening to what SHE WANTS to hear, she's not hard of hearing, but hard of listening... that's what she admited to me a few yuears back. now she still does selective hearing. i've grown to stop correcting her because it's no use.
then my grannny continued saying "you can be like that in spore but u can't do that in aiyee (my aunt's) place" but hey i'm not stayin in ai yee's place...doesn't she know...she noes lor!!!
she went on saying "what if you fall sick now from goin out and stayin up late at night? then if you go back to aus, how??" i was like er....damn off lor...no coherence!!!! and she made such a HUGE din...man! and her voice is super loud already....bahh..thus my dad opened the door. bet you my dad's going to make one or two sarcastic remarks tomorrow. then he would say that i should be more responsible, more sensitive to ppl around me....yada yada...all that jazz....please dad....more sensitive?? look at urself...always calling me fat...how do i fucking feel?? but i just fucking DOn'T lIKE To bE aT hoME!!!!! i hate staying at home...!!!
i have no friggin privacy at home. my whole family's always in my room. my dad's constantly on the computer...dunno doing what....my mum keeps peeking over my shoulder, literally! to check on me...and my brother just wants to irritate me...he's at that age....sorry just in a super irritable mood....no...wait, i'm just pissed...let me rattle on....don't read further...it's going to be even more angry as i continue...
PLEASE DO NOT COMMENT ON THIS...not at this time...IT'S JUST MY THOUGHTS
i know i'm fucking selfish, and acting like a brat but what can't i be? since i've been such an angel from young, being SO afraid of even defying the slightest commandments that my parents make. beign scared of every comment, sarcastic remark that comes out from them. i know somehow tt they mean well but hey be more postitive?? yeah yeah asian families...give me more of that crap, please~
and i'm sick of jus swallowing back or holding back my comments because i'm scared of their replies...i'm sick of being hurt by their remarks...i'm just so sick of living under their sarcasm and what not~ ah! classic eg...when i retort back at anything they say when i was slightly younger, they would say something to this extent "so is this what you were taught in church?" aw come on! leave God out of this...yes i noe i'm supposed to be like an angel and stuff...yeah yeah fuck! sorry for being perfect! come on! i'm still human and still need an outlet to voice out my thoughts and feelings sometimes! all these years of repressiong, i make up when i grow older, i'm so sorry but too bad i've to do it now. if not one day i'll jus burst and you wouldn't wanna see me in that state...
i'm so so so glad that i'm in australia. i just hate my household sometimes... full of pretence, hypocrisy, and anger...dun wanna lay down any examples. more i say the more pissed i become..
thanks mum and dad for teaching me that. i REALLY need it for future use. i've also learnt something valuable: sarcasm, underlyin tones and suspicion. i feel like such a WHOLE person, with such a great personality.
and ray, you're lucky u're alive...thats all i can say for now. just becase i'm a gal and u're a guy, just because u're someone who can carry on the fucking family name. fair? i dunno...i dunno how to decide on that...maybe if i grow a dick i'll change my perspective.
thanks mum and dad for making me feel like i'm WORTHY.
thanks for asking me whether i wanted a brother. you REALLY made the effort to.
thanks for making the decision to adopt him, you REALLY made me feel part of the FAMILY.
thanks for being a typical chinese family, one who BELIEVES in equality.
thanks for teaching me sarcasm, because i think i've proven in this aspect that i'm like you, esp u dad....thanks for this valuable trait. i've done you proud.
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that's about it i wrote...got loads to write.... this is my life...this is my family... i still thank God for them but sometimes when i'm angry espeically things like that do come to my head...
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shall change the subject...well on to kenneth...well talked to him about what i wanted to say, something pressing which has been bugging and distracting the hell out of me...glad i got it off my chest...and i cried... yes crybaby...but yeah...i was so worried that hmmm something like a breakup would happen today...but much to my surprise, he assured me that i mean a lot to him and that was unexpected but reassuring to me...loads of things we said to each other...but wanna say it again..thanks! jus one word...thanks... i really needed it...and i need u...
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hmmm tat's about it for now....i thank God for mother... (i call my mum "mother")
Dear Mother...sometimes i feel like i wanna scream at you, sometimes i just wanna give you a hug. SOmetimes the silent treatments that i give you seem awfully unbearable, i'm sorry if i've hurt you in that way. Sometimes you too have hurt me, more deeply than you could even imagine, just for the fact that you're so dear to me, and more importantly u're my kin. Sometimes i laugh at your stupid jokes, sometimes i cry at your cutting remarks. Sometimes i just feel that i don't belong and often i wonder whether i was even born of your flesh. i know that you do love me but why can't you show your love more often? i'll do the same you know... i'll do the same... with lost of love...your daughter.
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this was written on the 8th December 2003
0001hrs:
i can't get onto blogger jus now...BAH! anyway tiring week...bleh!
0921hrs:
i've nothing to do *WHINE* i jus hate working in an office... i can't imagine doing that for the rest of my life... i want to travel and ..maybe be a journalist or work for national geographic BUT definitely not an office job. hoever spending time and speaking with my optician, i dunno man....i mean met him for a short while and we talked. we always talk. i love talking to him actually because he's very frank. and i dunn whether he put me down back t realisty and extinguished my glimmering dreams but sigh, he says there comes a pt when i've got to make a choice, to settle down and sit in an office and "do what i'm supposed to do" but why do i have to do what society deems as "right"?
i mean what happens if i really want to do what i want and settle for something different? wat happens if i want to go against the flow? will i be deemed inadequate? will i be labelled "unfilial" because i'm not earning enough, or not bringing in cash for the family? and more imptly, will i be happy??
minutes later....:
i've met many ACsians on the streets during the weekend......jenny (the fierce netballer from SC3....alfonso's class), sherwin with mincong..mincong looks better now...still bloody lanky..hahah sherwin doesn't look like he's in the army...looks damn slack......sara....shit! she lost soooo much weight...PLUS she's smoking rite now..tsk tsk....ruozhi and her friend....ruozhi's smoking as well...tsk...sigh...alot of AC seniors..can't remember their names...
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yeap...still at kenneth's place...finished writign notes liaozz..he's bathing....then probably going home after he comes out from the shower...hmmm.......it's 0016hrs (11th...YAY!!! one more day before someone's coming back to spore..hehehe special welcome back to charms the main main!!! heee.......)
BTW..keep the 21st free ok? hehehe
wa liaozz...called bryan but he's not at home....so busyyy meezzzyyy!!!
okok....he's out...yay!!
oh finally kenneth decides to cut his hair..he looks so much better now..hehe and he dyed his hair red..like meeee...BUT mine's faded liaozz..sianzzz....should i cut my hair...to cut or not to cut..tat is the Q... =)))
okk..time to goooo
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Wednesday, December 10, 2003
hmmm it's almost 11pm..at kenneth;s place now..he's packing to go for youth camp....i'm helping him type some letters for his group members.... =) going to do that soon..anyway went for dinner with geok pei aka karen aka leg hair..bwahhhahaha...ye syes.....she is one hot babe! =) sooo many guys lining up for her...well she's settled with tommy... hope they last =) hehehe
anyway had dinner ....den well met kenneth..
hmmm kenneth's whinign now......hmmmm kenneth anything to say?
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he's nothing to say?
hahahha..okok time to type the letters den head home..
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Tuesday, December 09, 2003
i wanna knock offffffff
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arghh
ARGH!!!
stupid stupid stupid!!!
im waiting for another like task before i can knock off WTF...i'm supposed to knock off at 6...it's fuckin 6.40 alreadyyy....and i am supposed to meet gao...he's pissed...fuck lah
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very peeved...at so many bloody things....
1) my fuckin job...
2) gao
3) myself
4) every fucking thing around me now...
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people that i thank God for in spore...
1) karen...my one true friend who will never fail to tell me when i'm a bitch, when i'm stubborn...she never holds back when it comes to me...erm...well she would (i tink) die for me as well... i tink i'll prolly do the same... but yeah...i love her soooo much because she's really a sister, a friend and a buddy.... we have practically done everything together...though we've been friends since only JC days and closer friends during the second year...man...we seem to know each other for a long time...love her to bitS!!!
2) kenneth =) hahah shall not be mushy today...
3) aik ming... my other whining buddy... hahahha tink he gets most of my shit other than kenneth....he gets my burp, he gets my jokes...he gets everything from me! ahahahha hmm actually that didn't sound right...but yeah..he's like super nice to me...and super patient...love him as a friend =) well once he liked me...but hmmm well guess that's the past? super super super particular and is very scared of gaining weight (sheesh..really like a gal in tt aspect) and i must say he's like a gf to me =)
4) eemin...haven't seen him in a while...BUT i know if i'm trouble and ask him for help he would go all the way to help me...been friends since sec1....was class monitor with him for two years in upper secondary school...been my best friend ...ermmm..
time to go!
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hmm waiting for weiguang (one colleague of mine...karen's fren from NTU) and waaa...hungry...
anyway did i mention about my saturday? went out with aik ming for a movie after settling my bank account for std chartered...MAR FANNN....dennn...yeah watched LOVE ACTUALLY...very good movie but erm..there are no like resolutions to erm the relationships...i mean yeah i guess it's about love (duh) but some r/s should have the resolutions... =)
hmm
after tat had to work..so worked in SB....loved it...! it was kinda busy and hahah i jus miss it so much...
hmmm
wat did i do on friday...can't remember...ermm....ohhh went to work...had dinner with karen ..supposed to go drinking with izzy..but he turned off his phone or something..hahah =) so yeah..walked to my work place den... =) sat there and talked till 9 plus....met a couple of ppl these few days...mainly from ac lah..met on the streets that is......rouzhi...sherwin (twice! both of fri and sat), mincong, sara (MAN!@!!! she changed so much, lost sooo much weight)... and ruozhi's friend...scary she said she heard ALOT about me.... *gulp* she's a regular cust from SB....still scary to hear someone tell me tt...
hmmm
hmmm karen's here...say hi karen....erm she jus walked off...okayzz...
anyyywayyy hahah on friday karen left me after like 10...den i stayed on to talk to wee.......hahaha went back into the store to look for my shoes but i couldn't find it....was so upset...arah (that kind gal) helped me serach for it but to no avail...den i started to sulk. met kenneth for supper den i kinda threw a tantrum but eventually he made me laugh... hahha stupid boy =) well den i was still whining and complaining to him that i coulnd't find the shoes... he kept assuring me that i would find it somehow. at tt pt of time i was like "wa laooo...if it's stolen how can it be found??" hahah well den on satruday AFTER work, i found it =p *sheepish grin* told kenneth den he kinda scolded me..hehehe oops...sorry dear~~
anyway gtg now....maybe i'll type in one entry that i wrote yesterday....half way...because some colleague of mine asked me to do something...speaking of him (this colleague of mine called chris) he asked what's a blog, so i explained to him..hehe
okok..time to go..HUNGRYYY
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Monday, December 08, 2003
feeling sick from even lookin at the screen....bleahhh....wa feeling so queasy...shit dun even noe how to spell..
waaa they kept piling sheets and sheets of documents for me to type in...they were all 16 digits... (credit card numbers) waaa...see until my eyes wanna dieeee
argghh...
anywayyyy...resting....going off soon...going to call kenneth...was supposed to meet alvin....told him i was too tired....den kinda arranged with william to meet him but DUA-ed him...lazy lah~
hmmm yeah...anyway wat did i do yesterday.... was wantin to meet er aik ming...den well called him but he coulnd't make it...SO i called chris because we were supposed to watch brother bear with his cousins. called him den we met in tampines...from jurong drove to tampines....den watched brother bear with his two cousins... hmm not bad a show...
after that...drove them home...den i went home. after dinner... wanted to go online but my connection was friggin slow... so i eneded up watching HONG XING DA JIANG (some erm.......star awards they call it?)
the dressing was horrible....but then again..this is spore...
hmmm in the midst of watching the show, my dad and his friends started singing karaoke...waaa wanted to go out so badly but i was jus too tired. whenever i come home i would jus go to sleep already....
anyway my dad croaks....my dad sounds like he's going to cry when he sings....
my mum sounds like shes going to sleep when she sings...
i tink in my family i'm like the better one in singing..hahah comments anyone?
hmmm yeah...his group of friends were laugh9in and screaming...hmm like small little kids...imagine 50-60 year olds laughing and singing.... hope i have a group of friends like that when i'm still tat old =)
hmm yeah..goin off noww...argh boss is here!
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hmmzzzz...well waitin for my other superior to come back from her late lunch..can't relaly remember her instructions...not too bothered too... hmm
anyway got loads on my mind, loads to update from my mini diary...can't wait to have like the right time to put them all on blog...
supposed to meet alvin yuan today...lazy...prolly meet him for coffee later...no appetite for dinner...had a few snacks for lunch....dun have appetite to eat properly lately...
anyway on sunday...which was yesterday went to visit ren ren after church. drove down to jurong and hahaha missed a turn and from PIE i hit BKE...went to CHua Chu Kang...basket...waste time..hahah shouldn't have asked rencong for instructions/ directions rather, because when i looked at the map, i kinda knew where to go, but with his intructions...was a lil blurrr.....
anyway had lunch with him...chi chatted den went off....was along IMM so thought of aik ming,,...wanted to ask him whether...shiit she's back
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okay.....as i was saying..... HAHA....i'm in the office now, it's the 5/12... did like...shit...dunno wat i'm talking about..anyway i ddnt' know i was a marketing executive.....dummm....
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hahah karen was distracting me so i like hahah stopped writing...anyway my nose is leaking...guess i'm going to fall sick aiks...
anyway yesterday i was working and suddenly this lady pressed a rubber duckie...everyone stopped doing their work because of the squeek for a second of two and there was silence..they looked at rose then she just smiled and shrugged sheesh! wat a wierdo... reminds me of my dad...
hahah you knw wat i finally am convinced that zac is hee a singaporean! oops! boss is coming..laterz! 10.39am
ps: u shall make an effort NOT to swear anymore...dunno why when i'm back in spore i am the swearing bitch. like today this lady sqeezed past me and i almost bumped into her. i immediately without any hesitation sayid...WTF...sheesh..i should stop.....
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tink this was writen on fridya...have to chop chop write this...because...i'm slacking..nothing to do...and waiting for hwee min (my superior ) to tell me wat to do next...
10.31am:
haha i'm in the office now it's the 5th of dec....
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Friday, December 05, 2003
MI-KAR-FONE TESTINGGG.... *ahem*** i have a special guest...her name's karen and she's DYING to write in the blog *shrug*** tink she's super irritated...she has been whining...hahah anyway i'll hand over the time to her....
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hahaaha..karen here EVERYBARDIE!!!hahahaha.....tell u ah..stan chart SUCKS!!!!wah lau...like as though they dnt pay me LITTLE ENOUGH...now tryting to make me work to my tombstone..sheesh...hope the co falls!!!hahahah..joking...renee stinks...hate her...HAHAHAA,,...nah she's my bestest bud...and my mood..or rather tantrum controller...haiz....hope australia will disappear then she wont have to go back..muahahaha....get swollowed by rthe Indian ocean...*no offence ah* anyway...i hate my life now...and apparently i'mgg drinkiung withy....the alcoholic goddess now...haha...cheers pple...bet u heard abt how gorgeous i am from renee already i dnt have to say more..signing off...the GORGEOUS ONE!
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ERMM.......ANYYYYWAYYY goin off now...we're getting out of here...this stinking place...renee signin off..!!! later!!!
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Thursday, December 04, 2003
hmm tired.........still typing....have been entering data and searchin for data this whole day...BORING!!! i wanna work in SB!!!! sniffles...
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it's 5.42 and i'm still workin..hope i dun do OT today..i wanna meet kenne dar liaoz...hmmm tired....haven't had enough sleep from yesterday, obviously..
anyway here's a continuation from the previous entry.....8.35am 4th dec
well dear if you do read this (er he seldom reads my blog since i'm back.....)dear.... as i was saying...i shall be slightly erm forward today and frank...(whoever can't take mush...dun read the rest of the shit)...dear...*sheepish grin* i love you..i really do. you make me happy (of course frustrated sometimes...hehe) and i'm glad to be with you. i know i am proud, and i have been all this while and i don't say this often and even enough but i love you. you'll never know how much seriously dear. and i want the whole world to know that i feel for you, care for you and will never want to hurt u (if i do..i'm really sorry) i know i've done some things that may have hurt you, some known some unknown but all's the past now. i know i will change and i hope you believe me. once again thanks for being you and thank you for loving me(although sometimes you don't show it..hehe)
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apart from feeling like fuck i feel high...hahaha i think i puked yesterday...jialat...hope i didn't puke in kenneth's place....
anyway shall go offline (what the....) shall stop now..hahahahha
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aiyahhh....stupid me..started typing my blog in a word file...can't remember where i stopped...so guess i'll start from the most recent..bleah..
today....8.35am....4th december...
i feel like fuck!!!didn't want to write an entry because i think i would swear like hell..
well didn't go to zouk in the end, went to kenneth's place. and drank. i drank like 6 shots of vodka mandarin and i was fucking high..maybe drunk..hahah speaking of which i tink i am still high...going to work soon...waiting for karen. jialat..hahah dunno how to work later..argh Agh ARGH!!! heh proud of myself i ean for once i made kind of a sacrifice for kenneth...didn't go to zouk becayse he didn't want me to. and prob also because it's our first year today. *grin*
well dear if you do read this (er he ...
sheeettttttt.......she's back
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oh ya...got my results...!!! heheheh well was so scared i would fail psych...i passed it ON THE DOT.....quite disappointed but thank God anyway..heheh =))) stupid assignments lor...bloody hell.....
crime was disappointing...was thinkin of getting at least a credit....but got a pass...
okko...
really have to go...shall list my results first...
sociology HD (80)
communications D (73)
crime P (57)
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renzi kissed and swore @
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hahah in the office now...slackin for a while...hmm not feelin too good....hahah because i drank a bit yesterday...and erm....was gone..hahahha thankfully i was with kenneth...tink he sent me home.... =0)) hahaha can't remember a single shit other than watchin the simpsons...
was supposed to go to zouk but well sacrificed it for my darling... =)
went for sushi dinner...it was kenneth's 2nd dinner but he ate a little....den after that we ended up in his place. yeah...started drinking...stupid dar said i have to drink 3 shots to do something to him (shall not specify what..hehe but he doesn't like me doing it..heheh so yeah..fair trade he says.. *shrug*) den i drank 3 shots...after that....i drank another 3 shots...
after a while i was gone...could vaguely remember erm...puking?? hahahhahah
still high when i woke up today....and while having breakfast....hahahah...was feeling sick the whole of this morning...feeling better now after lunch......had chicken rice by myself near selegie =))) hahahha
okayyyzzz..time to go before i get caught slacking...eating snake...CHI SHE...JIAK ZHUANG...heheh
shall update my blog from the 27th?? soon...maybe today after dinner with dar....dar's bringing me to concourse...heheh it's our 1 year =)))
wow
renzi kissed and swore @
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Monday, December 01, 2003
hmmm it's about 9.45pm and i'm at kenneth's place. we skipped dinner because i had no appetite...well tink we're going for supper......STINGRAY yummmm...
anyway had a very bad day at work....glad today's over...however hwee min my superior says i'll be very busy tomorrow....sighhh...
arghh i keep sneexing...baddd....sneezzing..i even sneezed when i type bahhh
time to go!!!! =)))_))))