can't be fussed about anything

hmm... i went to the library today to listen to my lectures online...very hard to listen at home...the connection is super slow...

hmm den i went to the halls to look for alvina with danny...had quite a nice chat... we were talking about plans after exams...argh..can't wait for the darn exams to be over...bwahhahahah...loads to do...i've to firstly vacumn my place...haven't vacumned the room for soooo long.....think cobwebs are forming already...hahaha...i have clothes lying all over the place...i've books strewn on the floor...man!

anddd...well yeah....my room's in such a mess.....*grin* i must be a disgrace to women... =) heheh i feel i'm more a guy den a gal..

hmmm when i was brushin my teeth in the library.. (had a snack on my way to the library), i saw this purplish bruise on my right earlobe...it looks like a stupid love bite..but DUh of course it's not a love bite...but it looks so scaryly erm...yucky...haha it doesn't hurt nor itch...hmmm....maybe it's the spider in my lamp that bit me..but den again...it would itch.... HMMM THE MYSTERY OF THE SWOLLEN EARLOBE>>.... and guess what? i'm startin to rash too....i must change my bed covers...think it's time...haven't done it since like hahahahahha ermm *sheepish grin* ermm......2 months...i miss my maiddd...hahahah

okok..shall do it after my 2nd ppr....which is friday....

going to start studyin....have to lah...have been slacking for half the day...bad ddddddd....

and need to call kenneth...but it's 3 hours diff now...bwahhhhh....basket...

yeap...shall do that later...

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things to do after the 2nd ppr:
1) clear up dirty clothes on the floor
2) clear up books that are not needed already
3) CHANGE THE BEDSHEETS
4) vacumn the floor
5) clear the rubbish in my room
6) ermmm.....LAUNDRY!!!

renzi kissed and swore @ 6:59:00 PM
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renzi kissed and swore @ 6:58:00 PM
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tsk somehting's wrong with blogger...anywayyy shall not read any of my friends' blogs till after my examsss...dum dee dumm

renzi kissed and swore @ 7:17:00 AM
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blogger's scrwed up!! where are my entries??????

renzi kissed and swore @ 7:16:00 AM
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hmmm hahah well erm...i cried yesterday...tink it scared the hell out of kenneth and charms...because i called them..individually of course, and just sobbed and sobbed...hmmm well i think i needed to do that...been bearin it for a while...AHHH feel so much better....but i feel bad because i went to sleep and woke up at like 7 plus...den i went online... erm...some things erm...happened and well i started crying..called kenneth first and then charms den kenneth again..bwhaha..thanks you two... *muakz*

yeap and after that i didn't feel like studying...so i called giap...and we went for a car ride...den went to maccas to have dinner....i didn't really eat much..had a hot chocolate...dunno why no appetite lately......after a while shaliza and chee mun came to join us...after that i went home...and hahah my eyes felt really tired...so went to sleep after talkin to kenneth for an hour or so...

warriaoooo....my eyes still feel tired.... i reckon i cried for like half and hour...haven't really sobbed this bad since secondary school.... hahah

and when i looked at myself in the mirror today....my eyes were kinda pufffy...tsk ...

still wondering how come my other entry's not out...shall cut and paste....

this was written in the afternoon after i came back from uni yesterday
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go to this website and do it before looking at my results...dun peek! heheehh

the website is http://www.chinapaint.com/eng/flash/colorandme_en.swf

my results are below... (tsk tsk can't believe i'm doing such things instead of studyin...okok..after this...)

I chose the red house which sayssss…
“You have a strong personality that likes to take risks if the rewards are worth it. You don't like being told what to do and prefer to take matters into your own hands.”
Comments: ermsss…. I dun tink I have a strong personality…bwahahhahahahzzzz… but most of the time I don’t like being told what to do…

I chose red for clothes =)
“Having a lively and outgoing personality, you don't like to blend into the crowd and pity people that do. You take fashion trends to the EXTREME!”
Comments: most of my friends in aussie would be able to vouch for that…I love wearing bright coloured clothes… =) and well sometimes bordering on the extreme bit..yeap…wait…shit I didn’t read it properly…. Cheyy…I don’t go with fashion trends..bleah…waste of time and waste of money… but yeap..totally agree with the “don’t like to blend into the crowd” bit….erm…isn’t “pity[ing] people that do” a little too extreme? Well I try not to blend into the crowd and go with the flow… you can say I’m quite stubborn..hee

I chose red for the rose =) or flower for that matter….it sure looked like a rose…bleah
“You are aggressive in business, but tend to take the backseat when it comes to your personal life. You are more comfortable talking about work than relationships.”
Comments: HAHAHAHA so true… I mean my blog’s different because it’s almost my diary…but to people I would prefer to talk about work…. =) it’s just me? And guess it depends…if the person I’m talking to chooses to not talk about his/her life, why should I open up as well?

I chose yellow for the car “Always searching for a bargain, you have many possessions. However, you tend to sell them immediately as soon as they go out of fashion.”
Comments: I only agree with the first bit…for the second bit..yeah as I said earlier…I dun go with the fashion trends so…..how to sell items that are not there in the first place…DOH!

I chose black for the phone
“Business often takes priority to social occasions. You are aggressive in business, but tend to take the backseat when it comes to your personal life.”
Comments: yeap!!! Bad but true…most of the time..sigh…. well it’s just me?? But guess such things need to be learnt… =) well that’s why I’m still young…I’ve a lot to learn hee

I chose the brown bear
“You are a no-nonsense, practical person. You make sure that you are there when your friends need you, and like to solve their problems for them.”
Comments: Most of the time to my closer friends..hmm I’m quite serious leh… hahah when I was younger I made sure I was there for my friends and yeap help solve their problems but as I grew older guess I realized that I can’t do that all the time because 1)some problems can be solved by me alone…I’m not superwoman… 2)people have to learn themselves, how to solve their own problems…and think of solutions as well (same lah!) 3) I grew really really weary…and tired….i felt kinda unappreciated?

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hmmm had a short lecture today..den i went to the library to study...studied till almost 2 den i went to the MUISS lounge for lunch..den went home...so now i'm at home...hahahahahha

anyway tink i'll be turnin off my phone from tomorrow onwards...because tink my friend will start calling me tomorrow to ask me what's going on for communications...i can't even finish studying and it's very hard to talk to her about communications .........i mean okok..let me rephrase...i can't even finish up my own work, i can't even help myself...and so i dun tink i have the right to help her... she would ask me sooo many questions and it stresses me up even more... well i did help her last semester...and wa liaozzz...unfair....she beat me during the exams...sorry if i sound competitive and petty...maybe i am... but yeah....

hope i dun see heer in the bus.... i mean she's a nice gal and all but she only comes to me when she has a problem...well sigh*** doesn't everyone...i tink i'm guilty of that...but well that's not the point now...

she comes to me when it's the last minute...yes i'm pretty much a last minute person but such things, like asking me questions on the day of the exam is not really gonna help me...hahah i just realised i'm going round in circles...

bwahhhhh.... the jist is... i'm afraid she'll ask me things that i dun noe and that would make me panic... (that is before the exam proper) and if that happens i'm so screwed....

but then again..i'll feel guilty for turnin off my phoen....sigh..

ramblings....tsk tsk...

i need to pass two of my subjects and get two distinctions for my other two....RENEE JIA YOU!!!"

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yeapp...dum dee dumm...my eyes! argghh....maybe i'll get some eyes...oops...ice i mean... =)

hahhaha i just remembered what danny said...damn funnyy...can't wait to like stay with him, and with alvina sharon and giap.... hmm but i can foresee us quarrelling , well squabbling alot...but we always do that anyway heheh we already warned the rest....

=) okayzz...shall start study...RENEE GO GO GO!! hahahha

renzi kissed and swore @ 7:08:00 AM
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bahhh....jus cut and paste =) it's really quite an easy and fun personality test =)

renzi kissed and swore @ 1:10:00 PM
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http://www.chinapaint.com/eng/flash/colorandme_en.swf

renzi kissed and swore @ 1:09:00 PM
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hey check this website out..! cooll

renzi kissed and swore @ 1:08:00 PM
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let's see..should i write anything now? hmm...

i can't wait for the 13th to come...whoooo! exams will be over... i kinda wish i'm in charms position now... (although she's like rushin thru her assignment) she doesn't have exams...but well she had shitloads to do as well...*shrug* guess it works out to be the same...

i can't wait for the 14th to come...because it's the YAA dinner...but i had dressing up....*ponder* too much of a hassle... but its the young adult's dinner as well...hmmmm....all on the same day...

i can't wait for the 15th to come....haven't planned for that day but who cares?!? exams would be over...

for now i need to get myself in the studyin mood...

i'm feeling soupy now...i wanna eat something soupy.....but i wanna save money on the other hand...i'm broke...jus told mum to give me money by the end of the month...

i need to pay for my mobile bills (130 bucks!!! bwaaaadyyyyyy hwellllll) and about 60 for my phone and internet bills....arggghhhhh

i just sent flowers to kenneth...he has been pretty down and irritable lately...so i thought this would cheer him up =) some thought it was stupid to waste money like that...but i tink it's sweet..bwahhaha coming out from my own mouth..bwhahah...but i tink it's something nice and unorthadox.... =) i mean why can't gals give flowers to guys... =)

hmmm thinking about what i should ask mum for christmas....should i ask for money? yes...i noe i will but how much *ponder* dum dee dummmm..... 500? is that enough? hahaha i've been asking for that since like 3 years ago...shit..tink i'm spoilt..but oh well... hahhahahahahahhahah die..tink i'm going crazy.... i wanan studyyyyyyyy

hmmm speaking of which..i need to study harder for crime...dunno whether i can pass....

same goes for psych...*gulp* aiks!

i noe i passed both my sociology and media studies already....but hmm i wanna get distiction for both butttt.....wahh stress mann....

let's see...they're discussing something now about the annual report...shall contribute now...for once....ta!

renzi kissed and swore @ 2:46:00 PM
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i'm at monyx now again...stella's typing out and adding to the final touches of the annual report, petrina's doin something and well...i'm as usual slacking...bwahahah...

tsk tsk...i need to get out of the slackerfied mood.... i've been studying a bit but mann...i need to pace up...my speed's really really really slow....

and to my utmost horror, i slept for 14 hours yesterday...argh....precious time wasted on sleeping..tsk tsk..

well wanted to sleep from 7 to about 12 and study but well...i just kept waking and and dozing off....dis baddddddd...really baddd....

shall jus leave it as that now...after the meeting..think i'll go home and do some more studying...

renzi kissed and swore @ 2:35:00 PM
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hmm...had quite an okay day..everything's getting back to normal...monotonous....BORING~~~ hahaha but well it's time to start studying...well exams are next week!! *panic mode* hahahah

anyway i wrote something last night...thought i might just cut and paste...wanted to like type it in but the server was really slow...probably downloading songs.. =)

but before i do that...must screamm...ARGGGHHHHH got two bills to settle...no money...shall jus wait for my mum to give me some money.... hahah shouldn't have done more shopping...bought two nice tops on saturday before my movie...i wanna watch the show again...hmmm

okok..shall cut and paste (the entry yesterday was a severely short one...heheh):

"Monday (21/10/03- 12.59am)

Well I was worrying (again..) and thinking back (reminising as well as regretting the things that I’ve done…) and all of a sudden..thought to myself…hmm haven’t done my QT for such a long time…I went online to the daily bread website and before I opened the window I prayed to God and asked Him to speak to me through the scripture and passage…scaringly enough He did… here’s an excerpt from today’s page…

“Despite what you are or what you may have done, He loves you (Romans 5:8; 1 John 4:7-11). He will never leave you nor forsake you (John 14:18; Hebrews 13:5). Others may not think much of you or invite you to spend time with them, but Jesus does (Matthew 11:28). Others may not like the way you look, but He looks at your heart (1 Samuel 16:7; Luke 24:38). Others may think you're a bother because you're old and in the way, but He will love you to the end (Romans 8:35-39).

Jesus loves you in spite of all the conditions that cause others to turn away. He wants to change you to be like Him, but He loves you as you are and will never abandon you. You are family; you will never, ever be alone. “

Yeap…guess I’ve been to caught up with the things around me…and guess I’ve been worrying too much about what people think of me (more subconsciously I guess) and regretting the things I’ve done (mainly bad) but I thank God I’ve found a friend in him. And I’ll never be alone. Guess I’ll keep this short and sweet for tonight…

Good night!"

renzi kissed and swore @ 2:29:00 PM
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"I am just a mere international student" just keeps ringing, well appearing in my head...man....

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"And another thing...what the idea of being so secretive?I understand the concept of privacy..don't get me wrong..but to the point where a simple banal thing turns into something exclusive...I think Ryan would understand what the heck i mean...o well....
some ppl's working styles are jus different I suppose...
and what can i say..I am just a mere international student..wifout any fancy portfolio what-so-ever....laaaa laaaa traa laaaa...."

i suppose that was meant for us right?

well maybe i'm being oversensitive but if that's really for us...hmmm

i've got a few things to say...

maybe i'll talk to u first before i write all these down...

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hmm can't really concentrate after reading tt....but well have to force myself to...it's the last lap..for this year that is...

no more SAM for this year...and now today..bwahahha it's the last like day for me.... dun wanna worry about the execs any more...too much to think about

anyway good news =) got a HD for my media studies essay..bwahhahaa... i almost choked...couldn't believe it..hee =)

but yeah..tat was the last minute attempt for that essay...the 2000 word essay that i did in a night...a fluke i tink...but oh well..guess i really can't pull that off any more man....

hmm had quite a good chat with kenneth just the other day...very productive indeed.... =)

hmmm need to do prolly some catchin up with HUMma HUMpa and charms...sigh..would have to do that after the exams...got alot to study..haven't started some more dieeeeeeeeeeee

worrying about today's last bash...kenneth doesn't see the point in me doing it....guess it's a tradition...

and yesterday we had a meeting from like 4 plus to 8...mann..reminded me of the SAM meeting we had jus on saturday...

we discussed about mainly the last bash...and well yeah half way through the meeting, we stopped for a while to practice our silly item....ryan wanted to come in but of course it was a surprise so we shoo-ed him away =) sighh....

sigh...

renzi kissed and swore @ 8:21:00 AM
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ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH fucking irritated...maybe i should say i'm pissed...

i only just got back my phone...

bloody hell....

someone (i dunno who the hell took my phone in the MUISS lounge jus now but seriously i dun relaly care now) jus hid my phone and everyone started asking "hey renee where's your phone" i asked nicely who took the phone but SURPRISE SURPRISE everyone said they didn't noe...so i got a little irritated and asked again before i left for the YAA meeting...

when i left i said "bye" and zac was quite surprised, said something like "what about ur phone"? hmm well i wasn't in the mood to like beg anyone lor... like yesterday i was quite MUNG ZHANG... maybe i am PMS-ing...on top of that...i've got a lot on my mind...like tone....

if tone doesn't go for last bash oaky doesn't go... wa liaoz...then wat's the point of having the last bash...

and i noe helen can't come for sure already...

and tone is sooooo busy and arghh...bloody hell

we've been tryin to contact and properly talk to him since sunday lor...

bloody cycle...

i'm already preparing myself for tone and oaky not going already...and helen..

and got next year on my mind...worryin about next year...worrying about my exams...worrying whether last bash will be a success...worrying about my group in MUISS>....fuck

and my stupid phone had to "go missing" for a while

i had to like wait for a phone call from the choral society (for performances for last bash), i had to call the SAM ppl (ie josh, janelle, lai, victoria ) to confrim which day to meet to change the signatories for the bank...(becos some of them had the impression that it was on thurs)

then i was supposed to call rodney for tomorrow's rehearsal... (and he called me a few times...couldn't pick up becos i didnt have the damn phone..

whoever did that.. (took my phone) took it at the wrong time...

fuck i'm just pissed...goign to call kenneth now.

renzi kissed and swore @ 11:11:00 PM
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hmm taking a break from words, words and more words... was doing a bit of reading for my next soci position paper (mini essay that is) and sighh...i'm getting stressed leh..dunno why... hahah i mean i finally got a HD for someting and that is for soci essay but now i seem to want to do as well as my major essay...but i can't seem to find the right words for my essay...i'm stuck...bahhh...not good....

i'm aiming to get a HD for my soci...quite impossible but will try...

as for psych...mann....i can't seem to understand statistics for nuts....gotta get down to it as well..sighhh...

for comm and crime...i should be able to pass...but i'm aimin for at least a credit now...got only a pass for both of those subjects last semester...disappointing..hahha...well if i did start earlier...maybe could have at least scrapped to a credit...

same for my psych..tsk tsk...only two marks more to a distinction..basket..

anywayyyyy....yesterday was byron's graduation...good on ya! cograts!! =) it's my first time like attending someone's graduation and i'm glad it was byron's...at least someone i knew better =)

when i look at the graduates...i can't help but feel that i want the time here to accelerate...i wanna graduate too! =) and i wanna look super good (do wel of course) and do my parents proud *grin*

then i look at nxt year..i'll be super busy...hope i can cope *gulp*

i will i know but i wanna d well... =) can't help but wonder whether i can do well in both studies as well as work (uni life) well....hmmm.... pressureee...i can feel the pressure already...

hmmm on wed i can't really remember what happened....think i had dinner with the HUms if i'm not wrong...arghh...my memory's failing me...but well in one f the days i did have a very nice chat with byron...

shall tell kenneth about it before i write it down...

but yeah..guess my words may have been hurtful to him (because he reads them blogs) but...sighh..guess i'm sorry at times...but not sorry at other times.. (yheheh yes yes i'm very stubborn and "thick-headed")

guess wat...? stupid byron's continuously teasing me with "AROOOOO" arggghhh...if everyone picks it up i'm so gonna be haunted for my stay in melbourne

hmmm i'm thinking whether i should ....thinking about alot of things now...about the future mainly...

wat will i be when i graduate?
will i even graduate?
if so will i do well?
or will i disappoint my parents?
what will my parents think of me when i get my degree in arts?
will they think that arts is useless?
am i spending too much money?
their money tat is?
are they struggling now?
what bout my brother?
what about his studies?
what hapens if he doens't do well?
will i have to support him when i graduate?
what happens if i wanna travel around the world to work?
will that affect my family?
will they call me unfilial if i "abandon" them like that?

lots more man...everything is linked to everything else...tsk tsk...

guess sometimes i worry too much...in tht aspect i take after my granny...hahah

anyway going to continue with my essay...tinik i slacked too much already...sighhhh

renzi kissed and swore @ 11:07:00 AM
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dum dee dum....shall start off my blog with what i did on sunday...well hahaha giap managed to wake me up at 9 but i dozed back off to dreamland. byron had to wake me up at about 9.45am...hee... i took a quick shower and waited for byron to pick me up.

when he did pick me up, man...he was stoned. charms was even worse....guess everyone didn't have good sleep for some reason or other. charms had to finish her essay and after she did she kinda suffered from insomnia ....i had to talk to kenne and he refused to put down the phone =P

anywayy we dropped by maccas and charms bought her breakfast....hmmm after that we set off for the mountains proper. byron was complaining bout the traffic but we managed to get there rather quickly..didn't really bother me anyway *grin* i love car rides....i love looking out of the window and just admiring the greenery (can't say that about singapore...but else where yes) the ride made me think back on my trip in myanmar. =) shall take some time to type out what i wrote in the bus when i was in myanmar. it was a pity i didn't bring any paper. if i had brought paper, i would start writing about everything and anything in the car.

let's see...we reached the tulip farm festival and WA LIAOZZZ....both charms and myself were like SUAKUs... =) when we first caught a glimpse of the farm, we were like WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....we were so fascinated with just the vibrant colours of the flowers. there were rows of flowers, colours ranged from red, orange to dark purple but it was just a beautiful sight. i love flowers... =) makes me happy ... hehe well the walk in the festival made me like tulips...i used to like only roses...okay..duno why i said that...hahahah

let's see...... i took sooo many photos...a pity my camera is crap...butttt.... =) heh sigh...hope i can hint to my dad for a camera.... =)

it rained after a while and...hmmm sighh....we had to leave the place...

we went down to a town and did a bit a shopping...well i certainly did...basket...i spent 20 bucks on chocolates...a few bars of chocolates cost me $3.50 each...man~!!!!! but they were very unique....i'm going to keep the wrappers after i've eaten them....

we visited a few shops...sigh........soooo many unique items i wanted to buy...and i wanted to go into an antique shop....too bad i have no money soooo....i told myself i'd better not go in....

=)

had pie....(hahah have to rush thru this blog because kee has to do his work)

damn nice!!!!

let's see...

we spent some time watchin the sun set....but it was too foggy...so sighh.... i had a hand in taking a few photos using byron's camera...hope it turns out nice....

we droppped by this place that served buffett....looked really sumptuous...the food that is....but we didn't have much space left in out tummies....hahah shall keep that in mind....

after exams...i wanna eat over there....

we ended our day eating mexican food....realised i dun really like mexican food...haha i ended up playing with the food, much to byron and charms' disgust...hee

went home wanted to sleep but giap called so we decided to go grocery shopping...

okokokokok

let's see....yesterday nothing much happedn....just had a meeting...we were shooting giap how...

he wanted to quit..

let's see....that was one of the reasons why we (kee giap and myself) cried on sat again...

lots more reasons...but yeah....

i was super pissed at giap for telling yvonne on sat that he wanted to quite...he tinks it's a game ?? no lor...i mean we started off together as a team...we have to end off as a team....he was the bloody idiot who persuaded me to join echo, along with yvonne and kee....

and man it was the first time this year (other than the time when i first left for aussie) that i cried, really cried...i was so disappointed at giap how. i mean his reasons were not enough to argue his case.....he said he has problems and stuff but come on lor...all of us have problems.... that one i shot him and told him that we have our own problems (he did also mention that he thinks he can't handle and tends to mix personal life with wrklife) but we have to learn how to handle it. i mean kenneth gave me so muc problems with regards to this but i still have to perservere because i gave me word to 6 other individuals and since we are goin to be appointed, our word to MUISS (and the international students)

mann...i was soo worked up... when i am angry i cry...i can't shout or do anything else....hehe..

but yeahh... he also mentioned that he feels that it's like always 6-1 whenever we have discussions and stuff...but come on lor...we need opinions, other opinions and we go by the majority...hai~ too lazy to elaborate on anything else...but well for that matter, we shot him yesterday...

hmmm....i told this to kenneth and he said "if giap how can quite, why can't u" knew he would say such stuff...but sighh...i don't work like kenneth? i mean i feel it's very irresponsible to just quit....i mean if i were to quit, what would happen to the team, and muiss for that matter??

giap said that he wanted to quit before the elections but for the sake of team echo he decided to stay till after the elections, really seriously....he made it sound like it's just a game...this is a matter of many people's feelings that are at stake! and he made himself sound like some saint...sighh...

and he also said that he feels that he is not capable enough and yada yada....cme on lor....we all came together as 7 different individuals with both good points and bad points...and we have come this far already lor...moreover, we complement each other as a team lor....

but we didn't let him go...that was the verdict...he can't go... and kenneth...i won't go...

but sad to sayy he did ask me hypothetically speaking if he were to ask me to choose between MUISS and him...sigh...i had to tell him "you'd be heartbroken" i refuse to let my personal life be diluted withmy work life...and if he really does that he would leave me with no choice because i would rather disappoint a person, than a group of people. many factors would play in my decision but i noe i would be very sad....so hopefully he doesn't ask me that in the near future....

*gulp*

hmmmm guess what made my day? (i am too tired to talk about the giap how matter already) i got a HD for my sociology essay!!! whoooo!! first time in history....other than my presentations i ave never gotten over a C for my essays...that was really a boost to me (that i can actually make it)

i tink i can get at least a D for sociology...but for the rest... *gulp* i'd better start to stardee hard...sighh...

okok.....shall stop for now....... =)

shall let kee continue with his work now....
2.32pm (in MUISS lounge)

sighhh gotta like tighten my braces again...argh

renzi kissed and swore @ 12:32:00 PM
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hmmm another day during the hols...haven't done anything this hols yet...bahhhhh hate procrastinating....was supposed to do my report deh...(that's like most impt...hehe but look at me now...)

am eating chocos for lunch....haha but byron jus called...he suggested to go for lunch and chaddy's *ponders* should i?? hahhahaha

yesterday had josh's thing...charms didn't drink because she was under medication... the rest of the 3 of us (alvina, sharon and myself) we had 2 shots of something...quite nice...one's called "blue fart" and the other, "_____ dave" (couldn't remember) both of them had a tinge of chocolate taste...niceeee.... =)

and we played pool...hate playing poolll....hahahha because i suck at it... =) well i got trashed by sharon big time..hahah

after that giap fetched kee and myself to his place. was supposed to do some work...but we ended up talking, and crying.. ermm...i only could tear..can't cry...dunno why... but yeah..this is the second time...really good sharing time, session...and all i can say is i'm glad kee is my friend =) giap's just sometimes in his own world...hard to talk to him...

well then giap fell asleep (as usual...sounds like me hahahah) and kee and myself talked until 4...really nice sharing session and of course talking cock session at times....i seldom do that now....but it was really a nice time talking. we talked about ppl....anaylsed how they are and stuff....

hahah was telling him when i was younger (and writing my diary more regularly) i wanted to lwrite about a person each day. but i never gotten down to doing it...shall do this one day when i'm in singaporea havin my hol....speaking of singaporea.....thinkin of doing sumnmer in spore...

dum dee dumm

and wanted to do this after my As but also never gotten down to doing it....i wanted to go to maybe a cafe or Maccas and sit myself down and start writing about the customers of that place, do an analysis on him (prolly a touching on the surface of things) but how a person dresses, and how a person behaves does say quite a bit already....

hahah then kee hung was like OMG!I WANTED TO DO THAT TOO! hahah we kinda really think alike...hahah =)

but i really thank GOd for the session yesterday...made me ponder and reflect on how life has been like in Australia. AND it really made me thankful for kenneth....

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what happened yesterday...what else..? haha went to the airport to send sze min's mum off.... sze min's mum is a really nice lady =) she was really sad when she was in the airport...after i gave her a hug, according to kee, tears welled in her eyes... well reminded me of my mum....

i still remember her choke (in tears) when we had to say goodbye....well on that day, me being stubborn and proud, put on a brave front... guess i take after my mum in that aspect... especially when i grew older, i refused to cry in front of her. only the other time when we had this confrontation. but other than that...she has never seen me cry..., or should i say wail... =) well no diff anyway i can't cry now...i can prolly force a few tears out but cry...nahh... i've been hardened to many things around me....sigh..guess i really need God too...

ahhh...anyyyyywayyyy after sending sze min's mum off...we went to boxhill... =) i'm craving for kee's dish..SIEW YOKE (roast pork) yummm.... i had duck and soy chicken..but i really like the SIEW YOKE there.... *drool* when i go to bowhill for my weekly shopping weith my aunt, i shall suggest that place...yummm

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wed- had YAA meeting..den went to HUMMparents' house for dinner...niceee.... and well watched a really stupid show "phone booth"

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cant remember what else happened...

wahhh byron's taking such a long time...

ahhhh...he's calling now =)

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dum dee dummm...told him i didn't wanna go....

now i'm back here....shall publish this first...will talk later...

renzi kissed and swore @ 11:22:00 AM
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hmmm here's one entry that i wanted to type in some time back...i was having lecture like 5 weeks ago??

"It's 10.12am and it already feels like eternity. The lecturer, Sofia Ahlberg, is rambling, well er...speaking like a filipino oh well at least a combination of someone from the Philippines and Spain. A weird accent.

Something queer ....er... there are many flies buzzing around...WASSSSUUPPP!??!? hahha...queer...let's see if i'm not wrong queer was known to be someone who is attracted to the same sex. oh....wait..watchin a clip now...

don't understand the video..bleah! the lecturer sucks! haha yes yes if i say that i've to make sure that i can do a better job right? well i paid so much money for the damn school fees...guess i'm justified?

and sofia (hahah sounds like a maid's name..oops..sorry...but true lor...) ends her sentence with "nah?" argghh flies !!! sofia!!! what's wrong with the lecure hall today.....? everyone's frantically scribbling what she is saying...oh...shall try to listen to her now...10.26am"

hahaha stupid entry...

anyway wat did i do yesterday? hahah had YUM CHA (again..) with sze min, her mum, kee and giap...had quite a bit....burp to that man...hee...

sze min and her mum are like friends...my gosh.... wish i could be with my mum....shall not dwell in that no more...

yeah but sze min's mum looks sooo young...forgot to ask sze min how old she is...and of course i wouldn't ask a lady what he age is...it feels kinda weird and even rude..hmmm...

yeapp...so after that went back to the uni when byron called to ask whether i wanted to go for lunch so yeah..went to clayton with the HUMs except for HUMma....what happened to HUMma??

after that had a meeting...

SAM meeting...

den went down to lygon... for singapore food....service was SUPER slow...but well u can't blame the gal serving us...she seemed like she was the only gal serving the food, taking down orders, clearing ther plates and dishes...respect...

but the owner was more cocky....and slightly rude...tsk tsk...so wat if they're our sponsors..PHUII

hahah yeap...so after that went home lor.....the hols this time is SOOOO boring...mann...i can't take it...

but it seems to be passing by really quickly..SCARY

monday...didn't do much i tink...went to school to do work...den went to danny's place for TANG YUAN...yummyy.... and after that went for dinner with the HUMs...and went to HUMMa and HUMMpa's place to chill...was really tired n MUNG ZHAN....byron was kinda irritating me then....too lazy to elaborate..but it's over...i can't be bothrered to think about such trivial matters at this moment..

glad charms is back...WELCOME BACK!!!! too bad i culdn't go and fetch her because chen hoe was like in the city...he stayed over in the city...so ryan and i coulnd't go... =(

wat happened last week? seems like a blur...

renzi kissed and swore @ 10:50:00 AM
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