Monday, September 29, 2003
quite irritated now...
well if one's so bent on saying tat i'm high...i've nothin to say
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Wednesday, September 24, 2003
well well....let's see...i'm at monyx now...everyone's doing work except me again..bwahahha...i'm a slacker...tsk tsk
hee anyway
elections are finally over....no more politics....for now...(a/c to oaky) mannn....why does politics have to take place in any association or in any situation for that matter....? it's no pleasant and it just makes people so wary and suspicious of others....
hate that...
anyway a record for me.....i did a 2000 word essay in one day...whooo hoo!!!hahaha if i do relatively okay for my essay....mann....doesn't say much eh? i still remember failing my communications essay last semester and i put in like SOOOO much effort into it...bleahhh...but tat's the past i guesssss....no more harping on it *grin*
ohh speaking of records...congrats to byron for breaking his own record =p
*grin*
ohh we won... by a landslide....somehow i'm not that happy...dunno why...hahah but then again..i'm never happy...i'm just hard to please i guess...only if i get like a 100% i'll not be happy....human mentality? just like one time when i got 100% for my math test...that was the only time when i was satistied...hahah can't do any better could i? *grin*
hmmmm guess i have to learn to be satisfied....gotta ask God to teach me to be contented....
gotta ask God to make me learn how to trust too...
hmmm yeapp....hahah byron thinks i'm in some kind self-defence mood....wonder whether i am...don't relaly tink i am lor...i mean i'm being objective here...but it's hard to be 100% because...
1)i'm only human...no one human can actually be 100% objective because he/she would be in some way biased...
2)in this situation, i'm in it, so i guess i tend to be tilted towards or biased towards my group or situation...make sense??
anyyywayy going offline...shall talk about this mysterious guy in the halls....hmm...nono....no new love interst....dun tink crooked.....something straight... =)
okko...gtg now....
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Monday, September 22, 2003
hmmmmm apparently some ppl are pissed off at us for being secretive...well for me if u ask me and u're my close fren i would answer u...i mean why would i tell someone our plans and strategies if u're not close to me...doesn't make sense and even though we may be in the same place with MUISS ex members and members...doesn't say anything wat...so wat? are we supposed o like announce to the whole world our plans?
sigh seriously i dun really care already....i noe i wanna win but there is only this much we can do...i'll leave the rest to God i guess..
anywayyy...had the first day of campaighning...campaigning i mean...
it went pretty smoothly ...but we had the usual occasional icy stares from the girlfrens of the other team...team revolution
let's see...nothing much happened..quite tired of the elections......haha tink the rest are as well but guess we have to perservere....
hmmm tink one reason why kee walked around instead of stay in giap's place (on his b/d surrpise thingie) was because he needed space...well tell u the truth...i need space as well tat's why i went out wih charms and byron on tues...well maybe it was his turn to feel that way...
just realised i can't hang out with anyone too much...i'm too afraid of committment....i tink? guess i have had too much bad experiences....2-3 very very very good friends are enough.... hmmm
1)karen
2)jean
3)charms(well that's how i feel about her...)
well dunno wat i'm driving at also now..hehehe
but yeah guess i needed to clear something.....with byron especially i guess....hope u can get where i'm coming from...
hahahha ryan was laughin at me when i said i wished the year would pass by quickly.....hahah..i kinda miss singapore.... =)
i wish i were in charms' place...wonder how she is now...hahah she didn't hand me her mobile number...hope i can get her number soon...
hmmmoh yeah as i was saying had kee hung's surprise thing on sat....and byron sent me home...he was super cold towrds me i guess i noe why....hmm
yeap....tt's it for now...i need to brush my teeth now...dum dee
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Saturday, September 20, 2003
hmmm... well well it's friday already...so fast...quite glad that it's passing by really quickly....because i wann the stupid elections to be over....
too much politics...too much dirty playin from the other side...yeah kenne said that playin dirty is essential..but well my team wouldn't stoop to that level...but all i noe is...i'd be damn angry if my team doesn't win... but i've telling my closer frens "if u dun vote for me it's alright..jus vote for the rest of my team members individually"
had a couple of talks with my group....
yesterday we were all full-on campaigning..but like what sze min mentioned, the most crucial time is next week. the campus centre looked pretty empty...it was friday i guess *grin*
but well had to see irwin's group of frens again...i'm kinda disappointed with irwin and william....william i'm not surprised...he never fails to make me disgusted with him (ahahah i sound bitchy but it's trrueee) i mean it's so amazing it seems as though as he doesn't make any effort to be a dick...well some guys will be guys... =P i really pity shireen...guess i dun have the authority to...but i'm entitled to my own opinions i guess...
anyway saw irwin...and his gang...he came up to me and said "hey you wanna give out fliers for me too?" hmm irwin and william seem to have this tinge of sarcasm in their voices...or is it jus me....but it can't be me because i dun feel like that when i talk to my frens.....
we gave out lotsa fliers (thinking about the cost now...bahh) and finally decided to go for lunch. renald, joon hoong and team echo (that's my team *grin*) had lunch in the dining hall.....we saw irwin doing his one-man show again ...walking around distributing fliers again....then he walked over to us and talked to us with this patronising tone, as usual, and said "hey don't be so hardworking lah...don't let us lose by soo much. people may think we're running for the fun of it" patronising or friendly, you decide..
a while ago....earlier in the week, he told me (in front of his unfriendly-looking friends) that something is supporting team echo...so i asked "what?" then he said "oh my car lor!!" and his whole bunch of friends started laughing at me...before i continue...well jus a background....he has a toyota echo.....YEAP...so i replied saying "wow...you should have told us earlier...we actually thought of it...we wanted to borrow your car and take a photo with your car " den he didnb't say much after i said that..
hmmm we actually thought of it...we thought it would be pretty funny should we win ....his car would haunt him for the rest of his education here...
he also told sze min "you're either half dead or i'm half finished"....cocky
well don't wanna say much....i mean i tink irwin is a nice guy..he was nice to me during the predeparture talk and stuff...he was the one who introduced me to william .....sighh....dunno why things are getting sour...sighh...
even sze min said she would make frens with him only after thee elections....oh well
yeap as i was saying irwin's a nice guy...but through the elections i saw another side of him....another side of him that reminded me so much of william.....i guess, as they say,.....birds of the same feather flock together... =p
can't stand his group also....stupid short hongkong gal who practically challanged sze min during the forum...mannn....hey we're all civilised ppl....sheesh....and whenever she sees us now...she would give a really icy glare...mannn....sze min should also stare at her man..hahha..... well what i do when i see them is smile...and what i get is.........a really unfriendly stare or look away...disheartenin eh?
so sad that MUISS elections has led to such animosity....and especially during the forum you could see distinctively the "war" between the execs and tone....so sad....i mean we're all international students lor..and we're all supposedly fighting for the welfare of the students but our actiions doesn;t seem to match what we say....or they say...
i told my group not to be bothered or affected by the execs...i mean we play fair and do our thing...i reminded them our very reason for running...not to fight against other studetns or tone, or team REVOLUTION for that matter, but to fight FOR i'national students...that was one of thge main aims lor....
and lately my team has be very disheartened but i guess sze min and myself managed to talk sense into everyone in ECHo.....now we're all raring to go =)
well shall talk more about this week soon...dun tink kenne is really that interested about this anyway...
hmmm charms jus left for singapore...quite sad.....not that i do spend lotsa time with her this week especially but i do meet her for lunch and stuff...and i miss having some kind of security ...i mean she has an aura of security ... =) yeap....and she said she would miss byron..she told me to tell byron sooo....byron......charms said she would miss ya =)
hahhaha
hmmm....kenneth did ask me where do i put him in my life...got me thinking...i mean i do say he's important and stuff but sigh...guess my actions don't match my words....and i noe words are jus air...jus give me one more week...and elections would be over....
sighh...
i noe i'm a person who loves to make myself very busy and puts the stuff (other than my studies ) in like priority.....gues i have to learn....
sigh....
well gotta go for SAM movie night today...den probably going to kee hung's house to surprise him .... it's his 22nd birthday tomorrow... =)
ok okkk..shall go offline....i guess....
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Tuesday, September 16, 2003
sigh..i'm in he MUISS lounge....did alot of thinking but...well...sigh...
kenneth's pissed off at me...guess i can understand why...i have no timee for him...and i tink it's very unfair for him. i noe it had something to do with the muiss elections (taking up more of my time) and my dozing off when talkin to him.
1) when i doze off, it's becoz it's like what at 4am in the morning? (sigh things will be worse during daylight savings which bloody coincides with my exams)
2) he says tt we can find a time tt both of us can sit down and talk on the phone but i dun want him to be like obligated to come back home jus for the phonecall
3) n i dun want to find a time that i'm free and he's not really free because i feel like i'm forcing him, or well should i say making him sacrifice a lot...sigh.
4) he doesn't talk on the phone and says hat he wants to listen to my voice buttt...sighh... sounds very cliche doesn't it...?? listen to my voice? i'd rather listen to how was ur day or tings like that...u can ask me questions...right?? i mean there's always silence at the other end...
5) muiss elections- one of the few people that i want to get support from ..doesn't support me totally...i noe...like most of my close frens that some tink i can't handle it...some think i can't juggle...sme think that i jus have too many activiies...but i jus need support...maybe like "i dun really like the idea dear, but i still would support u in what u do..." maybe i'm looking for that, maybe i'm looking for reassurance but i jus need him to say something like that....it's been bloody bugging me for the past weeks....it does matter that my frens dun really support me..but wat makes me even more sad is tha fact that my own bf doesn't...
maybe i'm reading too much into it...but...well.....what say you about that?? you meaning kenneth...
and well today i had quite an intense half of the day dat was why idecided to join charms and byron to chaddy's...too much politics, too much aggression happened today....not my cup of tea....
well didn't do much in chaddy's anyway...didn't bring my card...so didn't do any shopping..wanted to buy something for kenneth...shit...no money...haven't sent him any snail mail (he said no need...oh well ....wat does he mean...? no nneedd because i dun bother about wat u say? or no need because i want you to rest, save u the trouble...? sounds very textbook answer...)
hmm....vinay's in the lounge minding his own business...hope he doesn't look up and see my expression now...
textbook answers... HAHA i've been going through my team's speech over and over....too many textbook answers...why the need for textbok answers...? what's the use of textbook answers...all but air.....i dun need textbook answers...the world may need them....(for reassurance or whatever) but i want things from the heart....(shit tat's even a cliche) but i want something that comes from inside not something tha has been said before by another person....sounds idealistic? maybe...
dunno what the heck...or why the heck i've said that...
well nothing much to update for the week......
what else to say? what should i do? i should still tink about it....
i dun need anyone to tell me what to do... advicing is one thing....telling is another...
okays....and let me touch on my responsibilities for now....i have YAA (which will be finishing this october), and SAM.....MuiSS is still not confirmed..why the big hoo haa? haha...i mean in my life i've always made myself busy....maybe to distract myself from thinkin too much....maybe to escape but that's how i work i guess.... my mum has always scolded me for being so active but that's jus me i guess....my priorities have always been not jus there....but i'm working on it...no one can see it but i'm making a personal effort....that may mean less sleep (more stoning sessions...haha) and less socialisation....
as for my studies....well all i can say now is i'll try my best ....sigh...okay i shall put more heart into this I SHALL TRY MY BEST =)
okay feeling much better....
sorry to kenneth if u're reading this...i dunno whether u see this as a personal attack but it's not....trust me on that...
and...
please try to trust me again...
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Thursday, September 11, 2003
hmm.,....hmm...guess i was really pms-ing yesterday....was thinking about a lot of things too...
funny everything seems to get to you especially when you get ur period....not too sure oabt other gals.... anyone to back me up...? charms? hahah
well i haven't had a proper dinner or meal with my HuM family...i've been eating in....saving lotsa money...hahaha....i've 500 for the rest of the month...=)
anyway i'm bloateddd.....stupid pre-mentrual thing...bahhh
anddd.....
dunno what else to add for now...got lots to do now......i'm going to finish up my essay after dinner den ...get some rest and edit it tomorrow...
wat else? sighh...i need to sleep...slept at 6 today.....and giap had to wake me up at 8...because he didn't get my sms to tell him to wake me up at 9...bahhh......
okok...off to eating now...
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Wednesday, September 10, 2003
sigh i feel down....but i can't seem to get a hold of why i'm feeling that way...
hmm before i start babbling on about me feeling like shit...shall jus say this...sigh....i agreed to join their team...yvonne's team that is...
i noe i'm being silly here. and so many of my friends are starting to doubt whether i can cope...but well this is somewat a challange for me i guess...too lazy to go on with the details...
hai~ i'm just feeling like shit here lah...dunno why....argghhh....
i seem to have lost most of my motivation to study...i've never really been that interested in studyin in the first place...i wanna get this over and done with...
seems like i've lost hope, and lost all sense of drive to do almost anything..well i figured if i do have a little bit of passion and have the interest for things like getting myself involved in whatever...i might as well do it....what has become of me??
oh well...
just feel like crying now ....
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Tuesday, September 09, 2003
sigh...i'm in a dilemma now...should i join yvonne's team to run for MUISS?? arggh... kenneth keeps telling me that i can't make it...but i know i can..
sighh...
well i gave my answer to yvonne actually but she wanted to like give me extra time..this has dragged on for almost a week or so already.....looks like she isn't taking a no as answer...
kenneth said i would most likely join them but his reason is far too...hmm simplified...?? it's not a matter of peer pressure only lor...sighhh......
blarrrdyy helll.......
oh irwin also asked me to join his team....hmmm oh well
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Monday, September 08, 2003
My inner child is ten years old!
The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Friday, September 05, 2003
sorry testing out something..
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cooll....in line with what they were going through today for psychology....abnormal psychology...bwahahha
paranoid
Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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bwahahha....shitt...okay no more after this
A GARAGE-GURL. Youre into loud music, hot guys and
wild fashions. Youre most at ease when youve
got all your mates around you and you like to
party. Boys are a game and youre always on the
ball because you make sure youre always number
one.
Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature, sociability.
Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for
attention.
What kind of girl are you?
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hmm.... how about this one??
Idol
The ULTIMATE personality test
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Your Captain Jack Sparrow
You're not always clear when you say something, but
you are trustworthy.
-x-What charater from Pirates of the Carribbean are you?(with pictures)-x-
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"Sweet Dreams" (by Eurythmics)
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused
Which 80's Song Fits You?
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hmm just did a few "personality" tests...hehe i love doing them....well at least some of the ppl i noe are still doing them...(ie byrona nd charms)
heheh anyway just went out with danny...had fried rice, mee goreng, a donut and ice cream for luunchhh....bahhhh...warraoo.....feeling fat already...
well shall not eat dinner... *grin*
Congratulations! You're a Long Island Iced Tea!
What Drink Are You?
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arggh...now i've started...okay shall do a few..heheh den i'll start doing my work
free enneagram test
Type Seven
The Enthusiast
The busy, productive type. Sevens are extroverted, optimistic, versatile, and spontaneous. Playful, high-spirited, and practical, they can also misapply their many talents, becoming over-extended, scattered, and undisciplined. They constantly seek new and exciting experiences, but can become distracted and exhausted by staying on the go. They typically have problems with impatience and impulsiveness. At their Best: they focus their talents on worthwhile goals, becoming appreciative, joyous, and satisfied.
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Thursday, September 04, 2003
let's see....i feel cheated...hahaha thaat's all i can tink of now...
sheesh...
1) i mistook communications lecture as my crime lecture so i didn't go for my supposed crime lecture at 10am yesterday but while walking to school yesterday i realised that communications lecture was actually at 10am while my damned crime lecture was at 12!!! arggghhhh...... basket....
haha was complainin to oaky yesterday about it...
oh anyway i took the MSA car out for a spinn...well not exactly, i went to pick up 100 sandwiches from blackburn subway. haha it was my first time driving in aussie..hope there's more to come...but was quite glad the MSA car was an auto car...hahah if it were a manual car, man! i would have difficulty in driving...because i haven't touched a manual car...oh i haven't driven a manual car in ages...like one year?? hahahah anyway auto cars are so much easier to drive....
hahah quite funny when oaks said "renee drive safely ok? i have a boyfriend!" hahahahha
sheesh...even may (she was supposed to accompany me to subway) said "i have 3 sons renee...you must drive safely"...
warraoo..i tink i can drive lorrr..heheh.better than most gals i must add...hmm...must ask a few ppl to testify for that..... but one thing is i turn quite nasty when i drive....hahahah
okok...
2) i felt cheated becauseeee.....there was no debate today!!! wasted my time and energy preparing for the damn debate!! because of the preparation i missed my lecture today lor!!!! warraoo.... and i felt cheated by myself because i actuallly forgot there was lecture today...bleah!!!!
bleh!!!
hahaha anyway went for dinner at jiew's place yesterday.... nice food...home cooked fooddd..yummm....i shall cook for my HUM family once i'm done with my essaysss...
AHHH! speaking of essays...good news! i have only 2 essays to hand up next week...whooo!
the communications essay has been pushed back...whoo!!!
heee...
let's see....oh couldn't do my work because my stuff was in byron's car yesterday..because of that i was talkin to kenneth for a while den felt tired so i went to sleep.... byron locked himself out of his own car...quite silly..hee...oopss..but it's true mar!~~
anyyywayyysss....kenneth tried waking me up today in the early morning but i just couldn't bulge...couldn't wake up...sighh....apparently he called me like 3 times...i could only remember talkin to him once...gosh...how scary's that??
heheh
welll yeap...nothing much happened yesterday....jus had the YAA meeting...and let's see...nothing much lorr..
charms had giddy spells so i accompanied her to the doctor..... apparently i asked a really stupid question...according to the doctor....to me it was justified...in a way i guess...i asked charms how does it feel to faint and stuff...i mean i haven't fainted before so how would i noe? bloody helll....i also wanted to know the after effects and stuff like that...
well to me any sorta question isn't stupid...i mean if u dunno u dunno lah!~ bloody hell....
ohh...of course one question that shouldn't be asked is "what are u doing here?" hahah worst question...
okok...shall prepare...shall like change and wait for byron...going to chaddy's with him...
ohhh..remind me to talk about evelyn and lai...hahah
taa!
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Tuesday, September 02, 2003
well well i'm in the MUISS office now. i'm waiting for time to pass. sigh yes sounds like i'm wastng time but i'm not. i have a few more munites before i head down to springvale for my next dental appointment. more torture today.
bleh!
hope one week's worth of putting on my rubber bands is enough.... =p
let's see....what happened these few days...
friday....can't really remember....er.....
saturday....went for my YAA meeting and went to chaddy's with charms giap and kee hung. after that charms and myself went to HUMparents' place. oh charms passed the pilates CD to HUMma i need one too...shall ask byron for one later...if i'm meeting him for dinner later (if my teeth can take it)
shit...i noe this is so brief but yeahh...
okok...sunday...went fr service with giap von-von and jacks... =) i tink jacks ...jackie that is... is very very pretty. i mean i love her eyes. =) she has this pair of bright beautiful eyes which just adds a nice angellic, innocent touch to her face =) niceeeee....
spent the remaining day doing my work i tink...den i went for steamboat with kee hung and a couple of ppl from giap's place. ppl there were....chee munnnnnnn....shaliza(funny charms mentioned that she thought those two were together hee) ...elaine..xiaohui....mandy....
i tink mandy would make a great cook....and wife =) hehehhe....
haha they were all teasing giap how with his cousin (mandy) and they said too bad he can't marry her.... =)
let's see...nothing much happened yesterday also....bahhhh....my memory's failing me...
er.....went to do work yesterday...efore and after my classes... den went to giap how's place with kee hung for dinner....er.yeah sorta...because i didn't wanna spend money out to eat *sheepish grin* finally....it's september...can ask my mum for money liaoz...arggh!!1
today....er...missed my lecture...now waiting to go to my dentist..sighh
ohh in the library i asked someone to stop using the phone....hahhaha....i was irritated lah!~
hmmm okok more laterrrrrr....i need torun liaozzz....